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သက္ရွိအိမ္မက္

2011-05-19T22:26:00.001+08:00

ထိုအရပ္တြင္ စိမ္းစိုေနေသာ ေတာအုပ္ရွိသည္။ျဖည္းညွင္းစြာစီးဆင္းေနေသာ ေရတံခြန္ေသးေသးေလးရွိသည္။
ထိုအရပ္တြင္...လူသားဆိုလို႕ သူမတို႕ႏွစ္ဦးသာရွိသည္။
ထိုအရပ္တြင္...ျဖဴလြလြျဖင့္ႀကည္လင္ေနေသာခ်စ္သူ၏အျပံဳးမ်ားပန္းလိုေႀကြႀကေသာအခါ ေကာက္ယူသိမ္းဆည္းပိုင္ခြင့္ ရွိသည္။ အခ်ည္အေႏွာင္ကင္းေနေသာခ်စ္သူ၏ ပံုရိပ္မ်ားကိုလြယ္လင့္တကူရွာေတြ႕ႏုိင္သည္။ မီးလင္းဖိုမွအေႏြးဓါတ္လို ေႏြးေထြးသည့္ခ်စ္သူ၏ လက္ေခ်ာင္းလွလွေလးမ်ားကို ဆုတ္ကိုင္ႏုိင္ခြင့္ရွိသည္။ က်ိန္စာသင့္ကာ ပုပ္သိုးေနေသာပန္းသီးမရွိ၊အျငိဳးတရားမရွိ၊ပာန္ေဆာင္မႈမ်ားမရွိ။
နာနာက်င္က်င္ ငိုေႀကြးသံမ်ားမရွိ။ က်မ္းက်ိန္ဆိုသံမ်ားမရွိ။

ဘယ္အရပ္ကိုေရာက္ေနတာလဲပာု ခ်စ္သူအားေမးမိခ်ိန္တြင္ သူကမ်က္လြာေအာက္ခ်ကာ ဒါအိမ္မက္ပာု ျပန္ေျဖသည္။ သူမကေတာ့ အိမ္မက္တခု၏တည္ေနရာကို အတိအက်သိလိုမိသည္။

အျပင္ေလာက၌ရင္ခုန္သံတခ်က္စာေ၀းေနေသာသူႏွစ္ဦး၏ ႏွလံုးသားႏွစ္ခုအား ထိုအိမ္မက္ထဲတြင္ ဆံခ်ည္မွ်င္တမွ်င္မွ်ျဖင့္သာ ပူးခ်ည္လိုက္ေသာအခါ စြယ္ေတာ္ရြက္တရြက္ႏွင့္တူသြားသည္။ ခ်စ္သူ၏ႏွလံုးသားထဲမွတလႈပ္လႈပ္ေရြ႕လ်ားေနေသာ ေသးသြယ္လွသည့္ ေသြးေႀကာေလးမ်ားကို
ဂရုတစိုက္နားေထာင္ႀကည့္လွ်င္ေတာ့ သူမ၏နာမည္ကိုႀကားရႏုိင္သည္။
ကဗ်ာ၄ ၅ ပုဒ္သာဖတ္ဖူးသည့္ခ်စ္သူသည္ ဒီအိမ္မက္က ျပီးျပည့္စံုတဲ့ကဗ်ာပာု ေျပာခ်ိန္တြင္ေတာ့
သူမ အသံထြက္ေအာင္ပင္ရယ္ေမာမိသည္။ ထို႕ေနာက္ ကိုယ့္အခ်စ္ဆံုးမိန္းကေလး ပာုဆိုကာ သူမ၏မ်က္ေတာင္ရွည္ရွည္မ်ားကိုခ်စ္သူက နမ္းရႈံ႕ခ်ိန္တြင္ မ်က္ေတာင္တခတ္စာအခ်ိန္တြင္ သူ႕အားမလြမ္းမိျခင္းအေပၚ ေနာင္တရမဆံုးျဖစ္သြားမိသည္။

သူမစိတ္ႀကိဳက္ခ်ယ္မႈန္းထားေသာဆီေဆးပန္းခ်ီကားတခ်ပ္တြင္ လြမ္းဆြတ္ျခင္းပံုရိပ္တို႕ ပါ၀င္သည္။အိမ္မက္ထဲမွ လိ္ပ္ျပာမ်ားက ထိုလြမ္းဆြတ္ျခင္းကိုသုတ္ယူသြားႀကေသာအခါ ပန္းခ်ီကားမွာပန္းႏုေရာင္မ်ားဖုံးလႊမ္း သြားျပန္သည္။ တအံတႀသျဖစ္ေနေသာ သူမကို ခ်စ္သူကရယ္ေမာကာ မ်က္လွည့္ႀကည့္မလားပာု ေမးေသာအခါ အသာအယာေခါင္းျငိမ့္ျပမိသည္။
ခ်စ္သူ၏ဘယ္ဘက္ရင္ခြင္အေပၚတြင္ သူမလက္ညိူးကိုေထာက္ခိုင္းေစျပီး Rose ပာုေရရြတ္လိုက္သည္။ ခ်က္ခ်င္းပင္ခ်စ္သူ၏ရင္ခြင္သည္ နီေစြးလွပေသာႏွင္းဆီးပန္းခင္းတခုျဖစ္သြားသည္။ သူက ထိုႏွင္းဆီပန္းခင္းထဲမွ အလွဆံုးေသာႏွင္းဆီပန္းကိုခူးကာ သူမကိုပန္ဆင္ေစျပန္သည္။ အိမ္မက္ေတြမွာရနံ႕ပါတယ္ဆိုတာလူေတြကိုေျပာျပမိရင္ ရူးလိုက္တာလို႕ မွတ္ခ်က္ခ်ႀကမွာပဲ။
သို႕ေသာ္လည္း သူမဆံႀကားထဲမွ ႏွင္းဆီပန္းသည္ယဥ္ယဥ္ေက်းေက်းေလးကို ေမြးႀကိဳင္ေနေႀကာင္းကို
သူတို႕မသိလို႕သာ ထိုသို႕ေတြးႀကသည္သာမပာုတ္ပါေလာ။ ႏွင္းဆီရနံ႕တို႕အေနာက္ကိုလိုက္သြားလွ်င္ေတာ့ အနမ္းတခုေပါက္ဖြားရာ အေစာဆံုးသကၠရာဇ္ကို သိရွိႏုိင္မည္ျဖစ္သည္။

အိမ္မက္အဆံုးတြင္ေတာ့သူမသည္ ခ်စ္သူအတြက္ လင္းျမေနေသာႀကယ္တံခြန္တခုျဖစ္ေစရန္ ေကာင္းကင္းေပၚသို႕ပ်ံသန္းသြားခဲ့ပါသည္။

ဗ်ာဒိတ္ေတာ္(၁၃)

2011-02-01T02:33:00.003+08:00

သတိထားမိခ်ိန္မွာေတာ့ ကိုယ္ကေခ်ာက္ကမ္းပါးစြန္းတစ္ခုမွာ မထီတရီ ရပ္လို႕ေလ။ ပာိုး.....ေအာက္ကိုငံု႕ႀကည့္မိေတာ့ ေမွာင္ေမွာင္မဲလို႕ရယ္။ ေနဦး...ေနဦး...ျပာလဲ့လဲ့မ်က္၀န္းတစ္စံု ျမင္လိုက္တယ္လို႕ ေျပာရင္အံႀသသြားမွာပဲေနာ္၊ ပာင့္အင္း ..ကိုယ္မညာပါဘူး။တကယ့္ ကိုျမင္လိုက္ရတာ...

အမွန္တရားပါ ကြယ္..အမွန္တရားပါ။ ဒါေပမဲ့ ရင္တည့္တည့္ကို ဓါးစိုက္သြင္း လိုက္သလိုပဲ။ ႏွလံုးေသြးေတြ မည္းနက္ သြားေလာက္ေအာင္ နာေစခဲ့တာမ်ိဳးေပါ့ ။ ေနထြက္ရာကို တူရႈလမ္းေလွ်ာက္လာသူ တခ်ိဳ႕ေတာ့ေက်နပ္ ေလာက္ပါတယ္။

က်ိန္စာသင့္ေနတဲ့သစ္သီးမွာမွ အခ်စ္ကိုရွာေတြ႕ခဲ့မိတာ။ အထိတ္တလန္ ့နဲ႕သိလိုက္ခ်ိန္ မွာသစ္သီးက ကိုယ့္ႏွလံုးသားထဲ တစ္ဆို႕လို႕...။ ေထြးအံပစ္ဖို႕အထိလည္းမစဥ္းစားမိျပန္ဘူး။
တကယ္ေတာ့ တိမ္ေတြလြင့္လာတိုင္း မိုးရြာမယ္ထင္ေနတာ ကိုယ့္မရင့္က်က္မူေတြေလ။ မလိုခ်င္ဘူး
မလိုခ်င္ဘူး ေျပာျပီး ရက္္သတၱတစ္ပတ္ရဲ ့ေန႕စဲြတစ္ရက္၊ ေန ့စဲြတစ္ရက္ ရဲ ့နာရီလက္တံတခ်ိဳ႕ ကို ယစ္ေ၀မႈးုျပီး လက္ျဖန္႕ေတာင္း ေနမိတာ။ ေနာက္က်ေနျပီဆိုတာ သိရက္ နဲ႔ကိုွ ဒ႑ာရီတစ္ပုဒ္ မွာမင္းသမီးေလး ျဖစ္ခ်င္ေနခဲ့တယ္။

ခ်စ္သူ ကိုခ်စ္သူလို႕ေတာင္ အမည္မတပ္ရဲတဲ့အခ်စ္ အသံုးမက်လိုက္တာကြယ္။ ဒီအတြက္ ကိုယ့္ကို ခြင့္မလြတ္လို္က္ နဲ ့ေနာ္။ ေနာင္ဘ၀ေတာ့ နီးႀကမယ္ ဆိုတာ ကိုယ့္တို႕အတြက္ ႏွစ္သိမ့္စကားမ်ားလား။ လွ်ိဳ႕၀ွက္ခ်က္ မပါတ့ဲီပုစာၦေတြြ ကိုေသြးရူး ေသြးတမ္း ရွင္းေနရတဲ့ကိုယ့္ အျဖစ္ကေခ်ာက္ခ်ားစရာ ေကာင္းလိုက္တာ။အိုး...ေဆာင္းအိုအို မွာအလြမ္းေတြျပိဳေနတာ ႀကည့္လို႕မေကာင္းေလာက္ ေအာင္ကိုု။

တခါတေလ အေတြးေတြရုိင္းရုိင္းသြားလို႕ တရားခ် ခ့ဲရေပါင္းမ်ားျပီ။ ခ်ခဲ႔တဲ့တရား ေတြက ကိုယ့္ကို သိမ္သိမ္ေမြ႕ေမြ႕ေလး ျပန္ျပန္သတ္တာမ်ားေနေတာ့ ကတံုကယင္နဲ႕ နာက်င္ဖို႕ ေတာင္ေမ့သြားရတယ္။ စနစ္တစ္က် ပ်ိဳးခဲ့တဲ့ ႏွလံုးသားေပၚ က ပန္းပြင့္ေလး ကိုသတ္ပစ္ဖို႕အထိက်မ္းစာတခ်ိဳ႕ကလည္း ကရုဏတရား ေခါင္းပါးတတ္ႀကတယ္။ ကိုယ့္ကိုဆံုးမစကားေျပာသူေတြပာာ ပံုႀကီး ခ်ဲ႕သူေတြပါကြာ။ ေႏြကိုႀကိဳမယ့္ ရယ္သံတစ္ခ်က္ကို တက္မက္မိတာ အတြက္ သူတို႕ေပးတဲ့ သင္ခန္းစာက ဒဏ္ရာအျပည့္နဲ႔ အိတ္တစ္လံုး။

သိလား အခ်စ္..မနက္ခင္းေတြက သိပ္က်ီစယ္လြန္းတယ္။ ကိုယ့္အတြက္ ေနမထြက္တဲ့အရုဏ္ ေတြမ်ားလာ လိုက္တာ။ တစ္ျဖည္းျဖည္း နဲ႕ေမွာင္လာရတဲ့အေႀကာင္းကို ကိုယ္တို႕ႏွစ္ေယာက္လံုး နားလည္တယ္။ (လက္ေတာ့မခံခ်င္ဘူးေပါ့) ။အေမွာင္ထဲ ႀကည္လဲ့ေနတဲ့ သစၥာအကၡရာ ကိုထုဆစ္ေနတာ မြန္းက်ပ္ဖို႕ ေတာင္ေမ့သြားရဲ႕။ မရွိခဲ့ဖူးတဲ့ ေနာင္တအတြက္ ေနာင္တဘာလို႕ရမလဲေနာ္။
ဒါေပမဲ့ တစ္ေရြ ႕ေရြ႕နဲ ့ေအာင္စည္တီးျပီး ေရာက္လာႀကမယ့္ (ေနာင္ကိုယ့္အပိုင္ျဖစ္ရမယ့္) ရူိက္သံခါးခါး ေတြကို သိပ္ေႀကာက္တယ္။

အရာအားလံုး ကိုမထံုတတ္ေတးႀကည့္တတ္တဲ့ အတတ္က ေစတန္ရဲ႕ဗ်ာဒိတ္ေတာ္မ်ားလား။ ဇာတာေတြ၊ ႀကမၼာေတြ ကမတရားခဲ့လိုက္ႀကတာ။ကိုယ္အတြက္ဆို တခဏေလးေတာင္ လင္း မေပးခ်င္ႀကဘူး။နတ္ဆိုး
ေတြကႀကည့္မွန္တစ္ခ်ပ္ဖြက္ထားခဲ့လို ကိုယ့္ကိုယ္ကို ဂဃနဏ မသိခဲ့ရတာလဲႀကာျပီ။ သိဖို႕လည္းဘယ္တုန္း
ကမွ မႀကိဳးစားဖူးဘူး။ အျဖဴဆြတ္ဆြတ္ ဆိုတာ စံပါယ္တစ္ကံုးစာ အတြက္ေလာက္ပဲလွတာ။

ရင္ခုန္သံေတြ က အေရာင္အဆင္း မရွိေအာင္ရုပ္ဆိုးသတဲ့၊လူေတြသိအာင္ ရွင္းမျပနဲ ့အခ်စ္ရယ္။ နဂါးေတြ သူတို႕ႏွလံုးသား ဆီ ေခါင္းလွည့္မယ့္ တေန႕မွာေတာ့ နားလည္လာႀကမယ္ထင္ရဲ ႕။ေဆာင္းေလျပင္း က သူတို႕မညွာတာမႈေတြ အတြက္ ဒဏ္ခတ္ ပါလိမ့္မယ္။ အဲဒီအခါမွ ကိုယ့္ႏွလံုးေသြးေတြ က ႏွင္းကာအျဖစ္ မင္းကို ကာရံ တာသူတို႕ျမင္ေစ့မယ္။ ေနထြက္ရာလမ္း လိုက္သူေတြလဲ မွင္သက္ကုန္အ့ံ။

ကိုယ္တို႕အေႀကာင္း ေဆးစက္ေတြနဲ႕ဘာလို႕ပန္းခ်ီဆဲြမလဲ။
ပာုတ္တယ္။ကိုယ္တို႕ အေႀကာင္း စာနာလို႕ ကဗ်ာေရးမယ့္ နတ္သမီးလည္း ေပၚလာရမွာေပါ့ ။

ေျမာက္အရပ္ ကအလည္ႀကြလာ တဲ့ႏွင္းတစ္စ ကိုဖမ္းဆုတ္လိုက္ရင္း နားစြင့္မိတယ္။
ေပာာ..ေခၚသံ..ပာုတ္ပါရဲ့...ကိုယ့္နာမည္ကို တိုးရွရွေလး နဲ႕ တရင္းတႏွီး ေခၚေနတဲ့အသံ။
ျပာလဲ့လဲ့ မ်က္၀န္းတစ္စံုပာာ အသံ ပိုင္ရွင္မ်ားလား။
ဒါဆို ကိုယ္ ခုန္ဆင္းလာရမွာေပါ့။
ပာုတ္လား အခ်စ္?

စာ

2010-12-17T23:39:00.005+08:00

မဖတ္ရတာ ႀကာျပီျဖစ္ေသာ စာကို ျမင္ရ၊ဖတ္ရေသာအခါ အားငယ္စြာ တုန္လႈပ္ပံု၊ အေႀကာက္အကန္ ျငင္းဆန္ပံု ၊ တည္ျငိမ္ေအာင္ အားယူရပံု တို႕ကႀကံဳရျမဲပင္ျဖစ္သည္။
မေျပာင္းလဲ၊နည္းနည္းေလးမွကို မေျပာင္းသြား။
အထက္စီးမွ ေျပာပံု၊ဆိုပံု၊ သေရာ္စိတ္ျဖင့္ ပာားတိုက္တတ္ပံု။ဘာဆိုဘာမွကို မေျပာင္း။
ဖြားဖက္ေတာ္ပာု သတ္မွတ္ရေလာက္ေအာင္ မခဲြအတူရွိေနတတ္သည့္ ဘာမထီအျပံဳးေတာ့ ျမင္ခ်င္လြန္းလွသည္။

(စိမ္းလဲ့ ႏွင့္ ထြန္းသာ)

Why?

2010-12-10T00:17:00.002+08:00

There are things I really can't say out loud....
Don't you see me in your dream like I do?
Can't I even deserve that?

Its my pleasure picking up all the pieces of my heart that you break.
Don't be surprised as love can be that blind at times.
I
miss
you
pretty
badly
.
..
.....

တေစၧ

2010-10-30T13:51:00.000+08:00

အိပ္လို႔မရ

ညႀကီးမင္းႀကီး၊ ထျပီးထိုင္ေန

ေမြ႔ရာေတြလည္း၊ေႀကမြတြန္႔လိပ္

သိပ္စိတ္ညစ္တယ္၊သတိျပယ္လြင္႔

ခုိတြယ္စရာ အတည္မရ။

အျပင္ဘက္မွာ

သစ္ရြက္ေတြႀကား၊ႀကယ္ေလးငါးပြင္႔

စံကားပင္အို၊ကန္ေရစိုစြတ္

ဟုိမွာ လွုပ္လွုပ္၊ငုတ္တုတ္လက္ကမ္း

စမ္းေလွ်ာက္သြားေန၊ျမက္ခ်ံဳေတြထဲ

တေစၧ ငါကိုယ္တိုင္ပါပဲ။

ခုတင္ေျခရင္း

ေျပးနင္းရွပ္ရွပ္၊မတ္တတ္ထလိုက္

ခန္း၀ကုိလာ၊၀ရန္တာမွာ

သည္မွာတစ္ေယာက္၊တေစၱေျခာက္လွန္႔

ေႀကာက္ေႀကာက္ႏွင္႔ႀကည္႔၊မ်က္ႏွာလွည္႔စမ္း

တည္႔တည္႔လွမ္းျမင္၊ေအာ္ငိုခ်င္မိ

တစ္ဆင္တည္းပဲ သူနဲ႔ ငါ။

ျမစ္နက္ထဲမွာ

ငါေရနစ္ျမဳပ္၊ခ်မ္းျပီးကုပ္ေန

ကုကိၠဳကိုင္းႀကား၊ငါေနနားလိုက္

ဘုရားေရွ႔ေမွာက္၊ဒူးေထာက္ေရာက္ျပန္။

ေမာပန္းလ်နွင္႔

တစ္ေယာက္ေသာငါ၊ငါမ်ားစြာမွ

ထလာ လြင္႔ပါး၊ငိုသံပါႏွင္႔

ဘာမွမႀကား၊ေမာင္႔အနားမွာ

“ထသြားစို႔ဆို၊ေမ႔ကိုအိပ္မက္

မမက္ဘူးလား´´၊တေစၧ ျဖားေယာင္း

မွုန္မႊားစိတ္၀ယ္ အရိပ္ထင္။

ႀကည္ေအး။

လေရာင္နဲ႔ထုပ္ပိုးထားေသာ ဝွက္ဖဲတစ္ခ်ပ္

2010-10-24T23:41:00.092+08:00

(၁)ႏြယ္မ်ားသည္ရစ္ပတ္တတ္ေသာသေဘာတရားရွိႀကသည္။ခ်ည္ေႏွာင္ရန္အားကုန္ထုတ္ျခင္းသည္ ႏြယ္ႏွင့္ဆိုင္လွ်င ္လြတ္ေျမာက္ရန္ႀကိဳးစားမႈသည္ အရစ္ပတ္ခံရသူႏွင့္ဆိုင္လိမ့္မည္။

သူက စကား အေတာ္ေျပာႏုိင္သည္၊မေမာႏုိင္ေလာက္ေအာင္ကို ေရပက္မ၀င္ စကားေတာက္ေလွ်ာက္ ေျပာတတ္သည္။ ေျပာရင္းေတာင္ေရာက္ ေျမာက္ေရာက္ ျဖစ္သြားတတ္သည္။ နတ္သွ်င္ေနာင္ရတုမွ ေဒၚလာေစ်းအေႀကာင္းေရာက္သြားသည္။ထိုမွတဖန္ ကမာၻႀကီး ပူးေႏြးခ်င္ ေႏြးေနျပန္သည္။ကတ္သီးကတ္ဖဲ့
ဲ့ေတြးျပီး သူ႕စိတ္ႏွင့္မေတြ႕သူမ်ားကိုလဲ မညွာမတာေ၀ဖန္တတ္သည္၊။

စကားေျပာလွ်င ္ႏွုတ္ခမ္းစြန္းႏွစ္ခုက ိုေကြးခ်ျပီး ခပ္ေလွာင္ေလွာင္ ျပံဳးသည္။ ျပီးလွ်င္ ရယ္က်ဲက်ဲႏွင့္ တဖက္သားကို မခံခ်င္လာေအာင္ ဆြေပးမည္။ ထိုလူ ေဒါသ ထြက္လာေသာ အခါတြင္ေတာ့ ရင္ေခါင္းမွလာေသာ ရယ္သံျဖင့္ ရယ္ေမာဦးမည္။
ႀကာေတာ့ သူစကားေျပာပာန္အား က်မအလြတ္က်က္မိျပီးသားျဖစ္သြားသည္။

အခ်ိန္အပိုင္းျခားတစ္ခုသည ္က်မတို႕အား ရင္းႏွီးေစပါသည္။ ထိုအခါတြင္ အလြန္လွေသာ အခ်စ္ ဆိုသည့္အရာ ေပါက္ဖြားလာ ရျခင္းကိုက်မေထြထူးျပီး မအံႀသမိေတာ့ပါ။

တစ္ခုေသာ ညတြင္ က်မေတာနက္ထဲေရာက္ေနသည္ပာုအိမ္မက္မက္သည္။ရုတ္တရက္ဆိုသလို က်မ အားႀကီးမားလွေသာ ႏြယ္မ်ားလာေရာက္ရစ္ပတ္ႀကသည္။ သို႕ေသာ္လည္း အထိအေတြ႕မွာ ႏူးညံ့လြန္း၍
မြန္းက်ပ္ျခင္းကို မခံစားမိ။က်မက ႏြယ္မ်ားႏွင္႔က်မ ႀကားရုံေလာက္သာ တိုးညွင္းစြာ ဆိုမိသည္။

"ရုန္းထြက္လိုျခင္းသည ္ငါ၏ရင္၌ ကိန္းေအာင္းေနသည္မွာမွန္လွ်င္ ႏုေထြးေသာႏြယ္မ်ား ငါ႕အားေႏွာင္ရစ္ျခင္းက ကင္းႀကပါ။"

(၂)ကံေကာ္တို႕ရွက္ရိပ္သန္းတိုင္းသူႏႈတ္ခမ္းဖ်ားတို႕ျပံဳးေစလို၏။

သူ႕အား ေငးေမာႀကည့္မိရင္း ပနး္ခ်ီဆြဲခ်င္မိသည္။လက္ေဆာင္အျဖစ္ေပးခ်င္၍မပာုတ္ပါ။
ဦးတည္ခ်က္ မရွိေသာစိတ္ကူးေလးတစ္စသာ။
တကယ္တမ္းက်ေတာ့ သူသည္ က်မအတြက္ ေဆးခ်က္ပီျပင္ေသာပန္းခ်ီကား တစ္ခ်ပ္ထက္ ပိုျပန္ေသးသည္။
္္ပဥၥလက္ေတြကို မွေရြးျပီတင္ျပတတ္တဲ့ ကဗ်ာ၊
ေလညင္းကို ဘာသာျပန္ထားေသာ ဂီတသံစဥ္၊
ျပန္၍ေတြးတိုင္း ရသသစ္ ကိုစြန္ ့ေပးႏုိင္ေသာ စာအုပ္တစ္အုပ္၊
ေငး၍ ေငးကာ ေငးမိေစစြမ္းရွိေသာ ႀကယ္တစ္ပြင့္၊
မႏိုးထေစခ်င္ေသာ ယဥ္ယဥ္ေက်းေက်း အိမ္မက္တစ္စု။

သူသည ္ရံဖန္ရံခါ၌ ေလတိုက္၍ ယိမ္းခါသြားေသာ ပန္း၀တ္မႈန္ေလးလို ညင္သာသည္။ရံဖန္ရံခါ၌လည္း ႏွင္းပုလဲဥတို႕ျဖင္႕ စိုဆြတ္ေနေသာ ပြင့္ခ်ပ္ေလးမ်ားလို္ ႏႈးညံ့သည္။ ရံဖန္ရံခါတြင္လည္း ေဆာင္းေလကို
အံတုႏုိင္ေသာ ပန္းလည္တိုင္လို ေသသပ္ခိုင္မာျပန္သည္။ရံဖန္ရံခါ၌မူ မိုးႏွင္႕အတူပါလာေလ့ရွိေသာ ပန္းရနံ ့
လိုေမႊးပ်ံ႕သင္းေလသည္။ရံဖန္ရံခါတြင္ေတာ့ မာဆတ္ဆတ္ ႏုိင္လွေသာ ဆူးကေလးမ်ားကဲ့သို႕
မထီေလးစား ႏုိင္တတ္သည္။

ရံဖန္ရံခါ မပာုတ္ျခင္းတစ္ခုမွာ ႏွင္းဆီနီေစြးေစြး ကဲ့သိုရဲရင့္လွေသာ ဓါးတစ္လက္၏ဓေလ့ကို အျမဲတေစ
က်င့္သံုး ထားသူ ျဖစ္သည္။

ငယ္စဥ္က ဖတ္ဖူးေသာပံု ျပင္၌ လမင္းအား ေရပံုးထဲသို႕ထည့္ကာဖမ္းေသာသတၱဝါ ကို သနားမိသည္။
အဘယ္ေႀကာင့္ ဤမွ် ေလာဘႀကီး ရပါသနည္း။
က်မကေတာ ့လမင္းထံမွ အလင္းတစ္မူန္သာ အလိုရွိပါသည္။ လမင္းတစ္ခုလံုးအား သိမ္းဆည္းခ်င္သည့္ သတၱဝါေလး ႏွင္ ့ယွဥ္လွ်င္ေတာ႕ က်မသည္္ ေလာဘနည္းသူ ျဖစ္ပါလိမ့္မည္။ တကယ္တမ္းေတာ့ အလင္းတစ္မႈန္ကိုသာ ထိန္းသိမ္းခ်င္ခဲ့သူ က်မက သတၲိနည္းသူတစ္ဦးေလ..။
အလင္းတစ္မႈန္အတြက္ ေလာက္သာ မိမိကိုယ္ကိုယံုႀကည္မႈရွိသူ...

(၃)စံပယ္ပန္းနံ႕တို႕ေမႊး၍ ေနေလသည္။ စံပယ္ရနံ႕တို႕သည္သူ႕အားေထြးပိုက္ ရစ္ျခံဳထားေလသည္။

ထိုေန႕က မွတ္မွတ္ရရ စံပယ္တစ္ဆုပ္သူ႕လက္ထဲမွလြတ္က်လာသည္။

အခ်ိဳ႕မွာ... ေျမျပင္သို႕ဆင္းသက္က်သည္။
အခ်ိဳ႕မွာ... က်မ၏လက္ဖ၀ါး၌ နားခိုႀက၏။
အခ်ိဳ႕မွာမူ... က်မ၏ ပုခံုးစြန္းတြင္ တင္က်န္ရစ္သည္။
အခ်ိဳ႕ကား......က်မ၏ ဦးေခါင္းထက္တြင္ ပြင့္လန္းႀကကုန္သည္။

စံပယ္ေတြကလွလိုက္တာ...
ေကာင္းကင္က တိမ္ျပာျပာနဲ႕အျပိဳင္ ကို္ လွေနတာ...
လိပ္ျပာသန္႕သန္႕တင့္တယ္ေနေသာ အလွသည္ သိမ္းဆည္းဖို႕အေကာင္းဆံုး အမွတ္တရျဖစ္ႏုိင္သည္။

စကၠဴစြန္ႏွင့္ ရစ္ဘီး၏ ဆက္ႏြယ္မႈမ်ိဳး ကိုက်မ တူးတူးခါးခါး မုန္းပါသည္။ စြန္သည္ ေကာင္းကင္၌ လြတ္လပ္စြာပ်ံသန္းခြင့္ရသည္ပာု အခ်ိဳ႕က ထင္ႀကသည္။အလကား စကားေတြ။
ဘယ္မွာမ်ား လြတ္လပ္စြာ ပ်ံလို႕ရႏုိင္သလဲ။
ရစ္ဘီးရဲ႕ထိန္းခ်ဳပ္မူေအာက္က စကၠဴတစ္စသည္္ လြတ္လြတ္လပ္လပ္ ပ်ံႏုိင္သတဲ့လား။ တကယ္က စြန္သည္ ရစ္ဘီးဆီမွာ နည္းစနစ္က်နစြာနဲ႕ကို ႀကိဳးတုပ္ ခံထားရျခင္းသာ မပာုတ္လား။
က်မ ရစ္ဘီး မျဖစ္လို။ ထိုသို႕ပင္ သူ႕အား စြန္ကေလး မျဖစ္ေစခ်င္ခဲ့။
ေျပာရဲပါသည္...က်မ ေစတနာတို႕ တိမ္ထက္ပင္ပိုျဖဴခဲ့သည္။

(၄)ေမ့ေနခဲ့သည္အခ်က္မွာ ႏွလံုးေသြးခုန္ႏႈန္းတစ္ခ်က္သည္ ပံုျပင္တစ္ပုဒ္ ေျပာျပရန္ေတာ့ စကားလံုး အလံုအေလာက္ ရွိေနျခင္းပင္ ျဖစ္သည္။

သူသည္ ႏွင္းစက္တို႕ ညည္းသံကို မႀကားရေသာ ေႏြဦးေပါက္၌ ထြက္သြားခဲ့သည္။

က်မကေတာ့ အေလ့က် ေပါက္ေလ့ေပါက္ထ ရွိေသာ သံေယာဇဥ္ တို႕ကို အားနာစြာ ငဲ့ႀကည့္မိသည္။ အနည္းဆံုးေတာ့ သူတို႕အား က်မ ေတာင္းပန္စကား ဆိုသင့္သည ္ထင္သည္။ လက္ဆဲြႏႈတ္ဆက္ ႀကည့္ေတာ့ သူတို႕က သြားေတာ့ေနာ္ ပာုဆိုသည္။ ေႀသာ္..သံေယာဇဥ္ေတြက အဆံုးမရွိေအာင္ ယဥ္ေက်းလိုက္ႀကတာ။

ိထိုေနာက္ ခပ္ေရးေရး ျမင္ရေသးသည့္ သူ႕ေက်ာျပင္အား လွမ္းႀကည့္မိသည္။
သူ႕အေႀကာင္းကို က်မ အေသးစိတ္မသိခဲ့ပါ။ လေရာင္နဲ႕ ေသေသသပ္သပ္ ထုတ္ပိုးထားေသာ ၀ွက္ဖဲတစ္ခ်က္အား ဖြင့္ႀကည့္ဖို႕ ကို က်မ မည္သည္အခါကမွ စိတ္မကူးဖူးေသာေႀကာင့္ပင္ျဖစ္သည္။

သူသည္ က်မ၏ ကိုယ္ပိုင္ အႏုပညာစေလးတစ္စ ျဖစ္ခဲ့သည္။ထိုအရာေလး ကို ရႈပ္ေထြးလွေသာ ဘ၀အေရးတို႕နဲ မေရာရက္ခဲ့ပါ။ အဘယ္အျငိဳးအေတး ေႀကာင့္ ေလွာင္ခ်ိဳင့္ထဲ ေရာ ထည့္ရက္ပါ့မလဲ။ လြင့္၍ေပ်ာ္ကာ၊ ေပ်ာ္ ၍ သာလြင့္ေစလိုသည္။

ေသခ်ာသည္က သူ အသည္းမကဲြသြား ခဲ့ပါ။ က်မလည္း လြမ္းမက်န္ရစ္ခဲ့ပါ။ သို႕ေသာ္လည္း မိုးဦး ကာလ၌ ပြင့္လန္းေသာ စံပယ္မ်ားကိုျမင္တိုင္းေတာ့ မေတာ္တဆ သတိရတတ္သည္။

A review of marche'

2010-10-09T23:28:00.010+08:00

me trying to act cool =)

I have been going out for nice foods with my friends in these day. This pic was taken in Marche',a Swiss Market Restaurant!. :D Actually, I went to 313 shopping mall with lei phyu and Su-myat for shopping and had no plan to dine there. However, Lei-phyu was promoting Marche for free, and I said "YES, lets EAT!"lol

look great? i mean foods behind =P

I have never been to Switzerland before and so yea it was my first to try some Swiss foods in Singapore! Of course, I was so excited as soon as I entered there. Upon entering, the receptionist handed me a ATM-type card thing and explained how to use it. I did not hear properly what she said as my attention was on the foods behind her. ha ha! Consequently, Lei-Phyu had to re-explain later.You know, the atmosphere was totally amazing and what I exactly felt was like a kid in a candy world!! I wanted to order everything as they all looked just so yummy and I could even hear my stomach making some noise inside.=P

This is for dessert!

Su myat joined us after I had delicious smoked salmon. She said she had her lunch at home and just ordered a drink. Then, marche`'s foods convinced her to share a grilled pork with me. ha ha! Lei Phyu was right, the foods are cooked just right and they are neither vapid nor dry. Though I had smoked salmon and grilled pork with mashed potato I was not so sure if i was feeling fully full =P. About the price, it is from average to expensive and depends on what and how much you order. It cost me around $ 28 for ordering two meals.

Me with Atm-type card and queuing to pay at exit :)

Oh, I almost forget to mention the best thing of this restaurant which is you can freely go around in that market-like restaurant and order what you want to cook in front of you and swipe that card thing. And yes, pay only at the exit! Sounds Wow, huh? I guess, it is A "MUST" to try out when you go to 313 in Somerset!Yes, I am considered as a fan of Marche` now! :) I am so sorry that I could not take much pictures as I was super busy with enjoying my lunch ;)
My bad! My bad!

Anyway, As recent posts on my blog are so wordy and some says its kind of boring . I thus put up some photos to look fascinating. =) And I do hope you all would enjoy my tiny review of Marche`.

Good night world :)

Wondering

2010-10-06T21:15:00.007+08:00

Sometimes there are things you cannot stop wondering like how I wonder why a word you used to call me can always leave me speechless and a call you gave me can leave me breathless.
You have been missed so dearly my dear =)
And no doubt that its me who have missed you loads!
Guess what? I don't have to tell anyone about details of the one I have missed for so long because my feelings are trusted and I don't need to make a drama out of it.

PS. don't ask me why I am then blogging about it. I have the right to treat this blog as my diary once in a while. xD Anyway, I know I know.. its insane =]

Circle

2010-05-22T23:55:00.004+08:00

Isn't it fucking pathetic?
you think what you have done is damn amazing? Or are you proud of possessing the egoistic brain?
SHAME ON YOU,! MR.I-AM-SO-FREAKING-INNOCENT-AND-I-CARE-FOR-THE-OTHERS.
Give me a break man.
You selfish cow. You ruined my terrific mood and you've gotta pay for it.
I have nothing more to say now.
How enough is enough? huh?
eff your childish behaviors.

T.O.D.A.Y

2010-03-27T18:12:00.007+08:00

Breathing In....

I closed my eyes for some minutes and allowed my brain to rewind things happened today.
you know. they are just so random as I myself am a random girl. lol
First, I woke up at 6.55 am which was kind of early for me and as usual, I was trying to recap the dream I had last night though I actually could not even catch a piece of it . (Typical me? )

Then, I put an effort to look up the sky where I could not find clouds but the brightening sun!
Its been raining here for some days but today here comes the sun.:) I am not such a huge fan of "Sunny days" , in fact I hate sunny days at times. But I had enough of rainy days for this week, I guess. Anyway,I let the breezes hit my face gently which was my very favorite part of this morning. And I studied for two hours before heading to my friends' house. I met with a bunch of awesome people and celebrated my friend's birthday. I was really happy to be there.

On a way back home, I was thinking about the selfishness of mine. It pops out from somewhere inside of me and always kills the beautiful things I would otherwise have . To some extend, yes I am selfish. It is hard for me to admit that I am selfish to some particular degree. It really is hard to reach a state of serene..

I am always thinking of winning instead of believing in competition, tiring of failures instead of taking them as experiences and pretending to be a strong one while a millions of tear drops were running without any unbroken continuity on my cheeks......What's more, I have tendency to hear beautiful lies , but the ugly truth. How am gonna I deal with this selfishness that is no good for me? Night after night, dream after dream and year after years, I am still trying to finish off the ego that sticks to me. And it is pathetic to realize that I still fail to take out the ego inside of me.

Yet, I am still...still...chasing the moment where I could find no ego lies in me.....

A state of serene....
A state of serene.....
A state of serene......

You won't hide from me that long........will you?

Breathing out.....

.......

2010-03-08T23:23:00.003+08:00

I cried ... cried and cried..hopelessly and helplessly like a five years old kid ..
I love my mom...She's the best!

Wait.. why was i emo all of sudden?
i just.. damn i don't know..

WHY DID I EVEN CRY THEN?

Because I saw you again..?

Because I assumed that I was gonna feel so awesome in my heart when I saw you again in your black T?

Because I was so naive?

yes? no?
i really don't know...

I am pretty sure it affected me in someway somehow.
wtf its all nonsense and I dont like it.

Today's a mess. I will be fine tomorrow. if not, I will try.

I am gonna pour my feelings over my blog as my diary's already finished.
I miss my best friend aye mwai....as always....

Darn, my face is wet again... I hate those things on my cheeks called tears.

2009's drama

2010-03-01T23:12:00.004+08:00

I feel like blogging the drama of 2009( My very own drama).
Ok, lets start recapping 2009's drama.

January

Sem5. I still remember how I had fun with Malindra, and we skipped too much of ISB classes.
Nothing special to describe of what I had, and did in January. But yea, trust me, it was so precious and I could not trade it with a million of dollars. I tell you!... I was such a fool ;D

February

Before I start getting off the things in my chest, let me take a deep breath.
Darn, it is always a problem with me.
Ok, I guess I need to mention my own policy here. "People should not regret honesty". And yet it never works for me. NEVER, you know.. NEVER.
Trust me, I kept that my own policy so close to the center of my heart, and it turned out as a joke in the end. I am sure, Malindra hated this month also for some reasons. ( I bet she won't mind I mentioned her name here). Plus, we both were so damn unprepared for sem5 exams which I felt so guilty. Oh yea, one more thing I realized was navy blue was not my colour anymore....Sadly ....sadly.. sadly...

I tried to sleep so early in that devil month, not because I wanted to, but because I did not like the idea of letting my eyes float with tears in the middle of the night.

Alcoholic drinks were sort of helpful, but could not ease the pain, I guess?

March

Homecoming. I WAS HOME....

How can you possibly come and change all my dreams, thoughts and routine overnight?

How can you possess such kind of power?

Who are you?

What are you?

You did not have a wand twist around and use a spell. But I fell down to my knees and bending myself towards you in the name of respect, worship and recognition....So..unconsciously ....so unconsciously....
Trust me, you were what I wanted with all my heart.

April

Calls were awesomely cute :) Thanks to you for that.
I thought it was an adorable month?
Shots made me vomit twice in the toilet and could not eat for the whole day.
I was so sorry..

Apology was not enough for you. was it?

May

It was raining... I did not like it.. I did not like it....AT ALL
I don't know..
It was so simply unfair...yes? no?can't be bother?
That was the last time I saw your face
~~~The month of may, the pouring rain
I've been looking for a cloud today...
Am i the only one who prays for rain?
I've been looking for a cloud today
cuz whenever it rains, I see your face~~~
yet you dfc....
My heart got cut( a big deep one) and it pretty hurt me.

June

Back in Singapore.
O-M-G, I could talk to my BEST FRIEND again. :):) All thanks to amazing technologies.
Aye Thain Mwai!!!Aye Thain Mwai!!!Aye Thain Mwai!!!
Without you, I am so miserable.
Mwai you are the best :) :*
No one can ever replace you :) :)
Anyway, my phone bill was damn much..
I Should not have....liked you so well..

July

My brain was technically SIMPLY busy with thinking about YOU. =/
Pouring all my feelings on Aye Mwai as always...

August

I celebrated my 22nd birthday with Malindra..
LOL WE WENT TO SENTOSA.! Darn.. It was awesome!. lol lol
Can you imagine two girls were on a cable car and talking all the craps?
anyway, I loved it. Thanks MALI ! YOU MADE MY DAY!

September

Ignorance was all I got from you.. I think? you know it was so uncool.=/

October

NEW FRIENDS. whooohooo Love it babes. I really do.
I aint anti-social anymore..I guess? :D

November

I was kind of stressed out for the performance?
Well.. I was pretty sure we did a great job ...
F... I just realized that I did not study for 4 or 5 months already.

December

New year night was great except I saw some unpleasant behaviours from my friend's love one.
I was so sorry for her. Love can't be that blind..girl I believe you deserve better than that..
Anyway, as usual i did not have any resolutions for 2010.

Happy new year yo! I know its too late. LOL

အဆံုးမရွိ

2009-11-17T23:10:00.021+08:00

အခ်စ္ဆိုတာ....ဂစ္တာ၂ႀကိဳးကိုလက္ေခ်ာင္းသြယ္သြယ္ေလးနဲ့ 1st fret ကေန 3rd fretအထိ
ဆဲြခ်လိုက္တဲ့အသံမ်ိဳးခ်ိဳတတ္သလို...ခ်စ္သူေသာက္မဲ့ေဆးလိပ္အတြက္ထြန္းညိွရတဲ့မီးေတာက္
ေလးလိုလဲပူေလာင္တတ္တယ္..
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(၁) ဥယာဥ္မွဳး

ကိုယ္ကေတာ့အလြမ္းေတြကိုမွဂရုတစိုက္ပ်ိဳးမိခဲ့တဲ့ဥယာဥ္မွဳးေပါ့.....

"လြမ္းမိတာေတြ..ဘုန္းသိပါေလ"လိုညည္းရင္းဘယ္ဘက္ရင္ခြင္ကနာက်င္ေနခဲ့တယ္...

အပိုင္းပိုင္းျပတ္သြားတဲ့ေႏွာင္ႀကိဳးကိုမွအတင္းပ်ိဳးေထာင္ဖို ့ႀကိဳးစားမိေနတဲ့အျဖစ္....
ေႀသာ္..အသိဥာဏ္ေတြကင္းေနလိုက္တာ.....
ဘာပဲျဖစ္ျဖစ္ပါ....သက္တံ့ေရာင္ေအာက္က ကိုယ့္စိုက္ခင္းေလးအတြက္ျဖဴျဖဴစင္စင္ဂုဏ္ယူတယ္

ဆႏၵေတြေရတိမ္နစ္တာႀကည့္ရင္း...မ်က္ရည္ေတြကိုတိမ္ျပိဳေတးနဲ ့တူတူရြာခ်ေပးမယ္...
တမ္းတျခင္းတစ္ရွဥ္းကကိုယ္နဲ ့တူတူသစၥာရွိစြာနဲ ့ထြန္ယက္ေပးႀကပါ...
ဥယာဥ္ေလးရွင္သန္ေနဖို ့ေလ....

(၂) ခံႏုိင္ရည္

ခံႏုိင္ရည္အားကိုသူတို ့ေတြဘာနဲ ့မ်ားတိုင္းတာႀကသလဲခ်စ္သူ....
ကိုယ့္ကမၻာတစ္ခုလံုးျပာက်ဖို့အတြက္ကေတာ့ ကုန္ခါနီးေႏြရာသီရဲ့မာယာအနည္းအက်ဥ္းပဲလိုတယ္....
ယံုမယ္လို ့မရဲတရဲကိုယ္ေမွ်ာ္လင့္ေနမယ္..

သူေပ်ာ္ပါေစကြယ္...
ကိုယ္မ်က္၀န္းေတြကိုစာနာရင္ေပ်ာ္ေအာင္လဲေနပါ......

ကဗ်ာဆန္တဲ့အေျဖတစ္ခ်ိဳ ့တံု ့ျပန္မႈကင္းတဲ့အခါ..အင္အားေတြက....ပာိုတစ..ဒီတစ....
လွ်စ္လွ်ဳရွဳျခင္းကိုသိမ္းဆည္းရတာထက္စာရင္ခါးသက္တဲ့ေလွာင္ရယ္သံေတြကိုလက္ခံရတာကမွပိုျမတ္ေသးတယ္
ဒါေပမဲ့လဲဥပကၡာတရားကိုကသေရာ္ေတာ္ေတာ္နဲ ့ကိုယ့္ယံုႀကည္ခ်က္ေတြအေပၚ
ရုိင္းစိုင္းလြန္းအားႀကီးတယ္..
အဲေတာ့ကိုယ္ ....
ျပိဳ..........................လဲ....................သြား...................ခဲ့..................ရ....................ျပီ.................ေပါ့..............

(၃) ရုိးသားျခင္း

ဘုရားသခင္..ကိုယ္ဘာလို့မ်ားျပန္ဆံုခ်င္တယ္လို့ဆုေတာင္းမိပါသလဲ?
၀န္ခံရရင္..ခဏေလးျဖစ္ျဖစ္ေတြ ့ခ်င္ေသးတယ္....
ေမွ်ာ့္လင့္ခ်က္တခ်ိဳ ့ပန္းမ၀င္ႏုိင္မွန္းသိပါတယ္ခ်စ္သူရယ္....ေတာင္းဆိုမိတာက
"ျမင္လိုက္တယ္ဆိုရုံေလးပါ...."

မိုက္မဲတယ္ဆိုတဲ့အသိတရား ကိုမ်က္ႏွာပူလွျပီ..
ခက္ေတာ့လဲခက္တယ္...ဒီအခ်ိန္က်မွရုိးသားစြာနဲ ့သူ ့ပံုရိပ္တခ်ိဳ ့ကိုခ်ဥ္ျခင္းတတ္ေနတယ္...
ပာန္ေဆာင္မႈေတြကိုအေျပးအလြားရွာရင္းကိုယ္လမ္းေပ်ာက္ဖူးျပီးျပီ....
မာနတရားကလဲ မရြာခ်င့္ရြာခ်င္မိုးစက္ေတြထဲေပ်ာက္ကြယ္လို့သြားတာႀကာခဲ့ျပီေလ..

စိတ္ထဲရွိသမွ်..ရုိးသားရရင္....
ခ်စ္သူရဲ ့အနီးဆံုးမွာေနခ်င္တယ္....

္(၄) ခဲြခြာျခင္း

ခ်ိုဳခဲ့ဖူးတဲ့ေန ့့ေတြကိုိုေက်ာက္ခ်ရပ္တန္ ့ပစ္မိတယ္
ခဲြခြာျခင္း? ဒါမွမပာုတ္ေ၀းကြာျခင္း?
ဘယ္တစ္ခုကိုသူေရြးခဲ့လဲ?
အဆံုးသတ္ကိုေမ့ထားခ်င္ခဲ့တာ..
ခုေတာ့ခပ္ယဲ့ယဲ့သက္ျပင္းေတြခ်ရင္းနဲ ့ခဲြခြာျခင္းရဲ့သေဘာကိုနားလည္ဖို ့ႀကိဳးစားေနရျပီ....

ရွုိက္သံေတြႀကားရသတဲ့လား?
ပာင့္အင္း...
ကိုယ္မငိုပါဘူး...ႀကားခဲ့ရတာကကဲြေႀကသြားတဲ့ရင္ခုန္သံေတြပါ...

စကားေတြကိုကစားရင္းဆံုးရွံဳးျခင္းအတြက္ခေရတစ္ဆုပ္ႀကဲခ်ရဦးမယ္...

(၅) အႀကြင္း

ခ်စ္ရတဲ့သူေရ....
ေကာင္းကင္ကိုေမာ့ႀကည့္ရင္း...တက္မက္ျခင္းကင္းတဲ့ခ်စ္ျခင္းတစ္စလႊတ္တင္လိုက္တယ္....
ကိုယ့္ရဲ့့့္္္္္္ေမတၱာတရား အတၱ ေတြကင္းပါေစ..

Argh

2009-11-15T15:42:00.002+08:00

I did not want that to happen, but it did .
How annoying!!
Stay away from me, please.
It is not because I hate you..but it is more like I can't be myself ..
So yea, stay away , will you?

အပိုင္းအစမ်ား

2009-11-12T23:56:00.004+08:00

သူက...ကဗ်ာ...
ကာရံညီေပမဲ့.....အလြမ္းေရာတယ္။

သူက....အိမ္မက္...
လေရာင္ဆမ္းေပမဲ့.....ေ၀ဒနာဆန္္တယ္။

သူက...မေတာ္တဆ...
ျဖတ္ခနဲေပမဲ့....ရင္ဘတ္ထဲကနာတယ္။

သူက...အတိတ္....
အမွတ္တရေပမဲ့....အရိပ္အျဖစ္က်န္တယ္..

၂၃.၆.၀၉
၄း၄၅a.m

လမ္းေပ်ာက္သြားတဲ့ဒ႑ာရီ

2009-11-12T00:17:00.009+08:00

တတယ္တမ္းဆိုရင္
ကိုယ္ကေျဖသိမ့္တတ္စြာနဲ ့က်န္ခဲ့ရတဲ့သူပါ..
ေ၀းသြားလိုက္တာေနာ္..
ရင္ခုန္သံေတြမိုင္ေပါင္းမ်ာစြာျခားသြားေအာင္ကိုပဲ...
ပတ္သတ္ဖူးတာေတြက"ခ်ိဳ"လြန္းေတာ့ေစာဒကတတ္စရာအေႀကာင္းမရွိ
ေႀသာ္....ပာန္ေဆာင္မုွနဲ့နာက်ည္းျခင္းႀကားက....မခ်စ္ရဲ..မမုန္းရဲခဲ့တဲ့အျဖစ္....

ေႏြတစ္၀က္..မိုးတစ္၀က္မက္မက္ခဲ့ရတဲ့အိမ္မက္
"ႏွင္းဆီအိမ္မက္တြင္ပါေစ..."

မေပ်ာ္တတ္ေတာ့ဖူးလို ့ကိုယ္မညာပါဖူး.
ဒါေပမဲ့ကိုယ့္ကိုကိုယ္ညာရင္းေပ်ာ္ေအာင္ေနခဲ့ပါတယ္...
အျဖဴမက်..ပန္းေရာင္မေရာက္သကၠရာဇ္ေတြကို
ိုခုခ်ိန္ထိေတြးရင္းနဲ့......
ရင္ခုန္သံေတြကျပိဳလုနီးပါးျဖစ္ဆဲပါပဲကြယ္...
့ဒီေတာ့လဲသံေယာဇဥ္တခ်ိဳ ့ကို
ပန္းလိုသီရင္းတိုးတိုးေလးညည္းမယ္...
လြမ္းတယ္...

ဘာနဲ့မွမေရာထားတဲ့ကိုယ့္အလြမ္းေတြ....
"ဆည္းဆာအလြမ္းမည္ပါေစ..."

ကိုယ္ကဖရုိဖရဲဲေႏွာင္ႀကိဳးေတြကိုမွအပာုတ္ထင္ေနခဲ့တာ..
ရင္ခြင္ကိုေကာင္းကင္နဲ ့ယွဥ္ျပီးဖြင့္ပာမိသြားတဲ့အခါ....
အုပ္မိုးစရာမာနေတြက....မႈန္၀ါးေပ်ာက္ပ်က္သြားတာ ရွာမေတြေတာ့ေလာက္ေအာင္ကို......
ကားလိပ္ေတြခ်မွပဲြစဖို့ႀကိဳးစားမိတဲ့မိန္းမ...
ႀကည့္စမ္း...ဘယ္ေလာက္မ်ားရူးႏွမ္းလိုက္ပါသလဲ...

လက္ခုပ္သံမပါတဲ့ဇာတ္လမ္းအဆံုးကို....
ကမာၻဦးလမ္းခဲြေခၚပါေစ။

၁၂.၁၁.၀၉
၁း၄၆ a.m
ေရးေရးျပီးျခင္းတင္လိုက္တာပါ....

Shock?

2009-11-04T22:54:00.007+08:00

lol? No No. I CANT LAUGH OUT NOW.
Is it really true?
How can it be?Hey ...are you really....?
*GULP*
I have known you for like.. 8 years. Yes, I confess that we did not have so-damn-close conversations, and we were not even considered as friends but still we knew each other to some degrees. It is kind of confusing, isn't it. Anyway I found about it TODAY.I mean, please.

You are pretty brave enough to tell these secrets inside to all the people you know and yet you are... . How can you be so comfortable and clam? You know, the images of you popped out from somewhere inside me such as how you were busy with your sketching classes, basketball team, your guitar, and songs . Come on, I did not have a thing on you but I was kind of attracted to you.I still remember how I stopped and gazed you when I was 14. You were in shorts, sort of sweaty, holding the basketball, and giving the best-smile ever to a little girl who was 7 years younger to you.
I just can't link back all the images with the-today-you. I ...I .. don't know whether I should be happy or sorry for you. Why am I so hesitating to accept it while you are relax and happy of being who you really are? I dont know.. i dont really know...
I am left speechless and I am scared too....
Don't ask me why I am so freaked out since I really do not have any answer for it.

ကမ္းစပ္နားမေရာက္တဲလွုဳိင္းခတ္သံေတြ

2009-10-28T22:48:00.014+08:00

ခုတေလာ..စိတ္ေတြသိပ္ေလတာပဲ..စာလုပ္ရတာလဲစိတ္ကမပါ.
bloggingလုပ္ဖို့ေတာင္ပ်င္းေနတယ္ယ္ေကာင္းေရာ အရုိးသားဆံုး၀န္ခံရရင္မလြမ္းေတာ့တာလဲႀကာျပီ(ဒဏ္ရာေတြနဲ့ေနသားႀကလာတာလဲပါတာေပါ့ေလ)... လူေတြcomplains ေတြတက္ခ်င္ေနတာခ်င္ေနတာကလဲႏွုတ္ခမ္းကရႊစိထိုးေနတာပဲ. ကိုယ့္ကိုကိုယ္လဲကိုယ္တိုင္ျပန္တရားခ်ဆံုးမေနရတာလဲအေတာ္ႀကာေနျပီ.. အားမနာတတ္ဖို့..ေျပာစရာရွိတာကိုျပတ္ျပတ္သားသားေျပာဖို့...ကိုယ္နဲ့မဆိုင္တဲ့ကိစၥ‎ေတြမွာ၀င္မပါဖို့...... ဒါေပမဲ့လဲ..အဲဒီ"ဖို"့ေပါင္း၁၆၀၀၀ကိုလဲဘယ္ေတာ့မလိုက္နာမိဘူး..က်ဴးလြန္ျပီးရင္းက်ဴးလြန္ရင္းပဲ.. ဆႏၵေတြကခဏခဏေရတိမ္နစ္နစ္..ေနေပမဲ့လဲေတာင္းတမွုေတြကမျပီးႏုိင္ေသးျပန္ဘူး
အေလွ်ာ့ေပးလိုက္ေရာမုုွေတြကလဲမျပတ္တမ္းဆိုေတာ့ရွိပါေစေတာ့ေလဆိုတာကလဲလက္သံုးစကားလိုေတာင္
္ျဖစ္လာရတယ္...ညည္းညူရတာေတြ..ညည္းညူသံေတြကိုသိပ္မုန္းတာဘဲ..
ဒါေပမဲလည္းကိုယ္တိုင္ညည္းေနရတယ္...
ကိုယ္ကိုကိုယ္ေတာ့မမုန္းတန္ေကာင္းမဲ့တူတူ..ဒီpostဒီမွာတင္ရပ္တာေကာင္းမယ္

လွဳိင္းခတ္သံတိုင္းက...
အျမဲတမ္းေတာ့့့သံစဥ္ခ်ိဳခ်ဳိေတြ
ဘယ္သယ္ေပးႏုိင္ပါ့မလဲကြယ္.....

Go flamingos!!

2009-10-26T22:04:00.005+08:00

LIVERPOOL FOR LIFE.

HELL YEAH WE CRUSHED MAN-U YESTERDAY

WELL DONE GUYS.

THERE WE COME!!

Arsenal, YOU ARE NEXT

FLAMINGOS RULE!!!!!

နီကိုရဲ

2009-10-24T20:43:00.008+08:00

သူစာအုပ္ေလးေတြကိုဟိုးငယ္ငယ္ထဲကႀကိဳက္ရတာ...
ပထမဆံုးစဖတ္ဖူးတာက..သူ႔ဝတၳဳတို ေတြ..
ပန္းပြင့္နဲ့အိမ္မက္မွ်ားသူဆိုတဲ့ဝတၳဳတိုေပါင္းခ်ဳပ္.
အဲဒီဝတၳဳတိုေတြရ့ဲဇာတ္လမ္းေတြ...စကားလံုးေတြခုထိကိုမွတ္မိေသးတယ္
မႀကည္ျပာကေတာ့ကိုယ္အတြက္ဘယ္ေတာ့မွမရုိးတဲ့ဝတၳဳပါပဲ..
အမွာစာကစျပီးပာိုးေနာက္ဆံုးစာေႀကာင္းအထိတစ္လံုးမက်န္ဖတ္ခဲ့ရတာ..
သူငယ္ခ်င္းေတြကအဲဒီဝတၳဳကိုအရမ္းရယ္ရလို့ႀကိဳက္တာလို့ေျပာရင္ေလ...သိပ္ကို္၀မ္းနည္းရတာပဲ..
ရဲ၀င္းရဲ့အခ်စ္ကိုဘာလို့မ်ားမျမင္က်တာလဲဆိုျပီးေတာ့ေလ....
သူ့့ ့ကဗ်ာေလးေတြကိုလဲခ်စ္ရလိုက္ရတာ..နုူးည့့ံတယ္...လြမ္းေမာစရာေကာင္းတယ္...
ျပီးေတာ့သူကေလ.စာဖတ္သူေတြကိုဇာတ္လမ္းထဲဆဲြေခၚသြားျပီးဇာတ္ေကာင္ေတြနဲ့တူတူလိုက္ခံစားႏုိင္ေအာင္ေရးႏုိင္တယ္
ဟာသေတြကိုလဲမရယ္ရရယ္ရေအာင္အတင္းလုပ္မေရးဘူး..သဘာ၀က်က်ေရးတတ္တဲ့ပါရမီရွင္.
သည္လိုသည္လို..ခ်စ္ခဲ့တဲ့့ႀကယ္ပြင့္ေလးခုေတာ့ေအးခ်မ္းစြာအနားယူသြားျပီ...
ေလဒီခ်ပ္ျပားကိုေရာ..လင္းျမတ္ေလးကိုေရာ...ခ်စ္တဲ့စာဖတ္ပရိတ္သတ္ေတြကိုေရာ..ထားသြားျပီ..

ပန္းပြင့္နဲ့အိမ္မက္မွ်ားခဲတဲ့သူေရ....
ေအးခ်မ္းစြာနဲ့အနားယူတာ...သိပ္ေစာလြန္းတယ္ကြယ္.....
T_T
R.I.P Ne Ko Ye`....

My favourite poem

2009-10-24T14:55:00.003+08:00

"Why do I love" You, Sir?

"Why do I love" You, Sir?
Because—
The Wind does not require the Grass
To answer—Wherefore when He pass
She cannot keep Her place.

Because He knows—and
Do not You—
And We know not—
Enough for Us
The Wisdom it be so—

The Lightning—never asked an Eye
Wherefore it shut—when He was by—
Because He knows it cannot speak—
And reasons not contained—
—Of Talk—
There be—preferred by Daintier Folk—

The Sunrise—Sire—compelleth Me—
Because He's Sunrise—and I see—
Therefore—Then—
I love Thee—

Emily Dickinson

Lately...

2009-10-20T22:24:00.005+08:00

lately.......

I am so freaking into John Mayer's songs. He is so talented , and H.O.T I think? Hahaha.
His song's "who says" is totally melting me down. You guys should try it too ( prob, you all already have listened it many times) . The video is simply AWESOME! And I have a contrary motion also. Wonder what it is? I am on a boat by the lonely island is the one. Though the whole song is like all about swearing, I find it cute xD Hmm.. swearing is cute in my ears? heck No. But yeah I like that song. lmao.

Aww You are just so awesome!

Lately

I had a really bad hair cut. The bad thing is not just about the hair cut, but time consuming by fixing it to look a bit better before going out. Well, I have a good thing about it too. You know, standing in front of the mirror brings me some laughs at times for this particular moment. :D There is a proverb saying "A good laugh and a long sleep are the best cures in the doctor's book". So , don't ever forget to laugh heartily. kay? xD
My new but bad hair cut!!!!

Lately...

I am trying my best to drink 64 ounces of water a day ( key word here is TRYing. lol ). Vegetables and fruits are like my best buddies now. Stay healthy, and make use of your precious time wisely and happily. Since we don't have a time machine, lets treasure the present because we never know how much we might miss these times someday.

LETS STAY HEALTHY!!!!

Lately.....

I tried the white dress I wore for Prom night Of C.IM.P( Canadian International Matriculation Preparation). Woo Hoo!!, it brought me sweet memory. Does it sound cool? Haha. I was 17 back then and went to prom with my Amazing girls called Karmila, Angita, Wita and Jill. We all did not have dates though ( we did not care also) . Most of our friends did not bring along their dates also. Wait, then why we called it prom night, we should have called it social gathering or something. ( I know Prom night is not all about bringing your dates, but most people (99%) do)hahaha. Anyway, the bad thing is I CAN STILL FIT INTO THAT DRESS =( meaning that I did not put on weights in these years. geez. How irritating!

Sorry for the mess behind!!

Lately.....

My guitar skill is improving. I am pretty sure about it :P:P
I am busy with Naruto Manga version ( I know I know I have to study, but give me a break, kay? lol)
I start making some lame jokes.
For instance, you know I was so scared when I came out of my mom, I could not speak for one and half year! lame enough?
I learn that 15 years old boy's ideas can impress 22 years old lady who always think herself as a mature person.
And I find out the word "I don't care" is needed to say at times.
One last thing is I am happier than those last dull days.
Trust me. :)

I look like a retard in this pic.lol

Oops!It is time to sleep! Good night World :)
CHOCOLATE DREAMS!!ehehe xD
see you all in my dreams..LAME AGAIN? whatever, IDC . haha
NIGHTY NITE!!!!!! :D

B.L.U.R

2009-10-07T16:15:00.004+08:00

I realized I was still holding onto it after talking with you for a while.
It was really just awhile but i felt as if it was a never-ending convo.
Its funny somehow, someone breaks your heart but heck you still love him with all the broken pieces.I am sorry for what I have said and done, I did not mean it.

PS. Don't bring out the unwanted facts to our convo.

Virus

2009-10-07T02:22:00.001+08:00

hmmm hmmmm
TROJAN TROJAN
THAT STUPID VIRUS IS GIVING ME HEADACHE.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

My favourite mistake

2009-09-23T23:32:00.006+08:00

You are just a teensy-weensy error , but it is way too fascinating to rub out .

I don't regret of something that once made me smile so brightly with all my heart. Without a doubt , you are my favourite mistake.

But I finally have decided to put a period where I once intended to put a comma.

Happy Birthday to the following celebrities

2009-08-24T22:25:00.003+08:00

Actor Rupert Grint (Ron Weasley in “Harry Potter”)
Actor Chad Michael Murray (from “One Tree Hill”)
Actor Carmine Giovinazzo (from “CSI: New York”)
Actor-comedian Dave Chappelle
Actress Marlee Matlin
Anthrax singer John Bush
Talk show host Craig Kilborn
Baseball star Cal Ripken Jr.
Actor Steve Guttenberg
Actor Joe Regalbuto
Actress Anne Archer
Singer Marshall Thompson of The Chi-Lites .
Guitarist Mason Williams
Actor Kenny Baker (R2-D2 in “Star Wars”)
Finally , THE NEXT NERUDA( ME =P in my dream :P) hehehhe
May you all have a wonderful year ahead ;)

Deleting......

2009-08-17T01:07:00.004+08:00

I deleted your pictures in my laptop.
I deleted your number in my mobile
But why can't I delete your images on my mind?
But why can't I delete your laughter in my memory?
But why can't I delete you in my heart?

caught in you

2009-08-15T03:09:00.005+08:00

It is now 3 A.M and I cannot sleep. haiz. 2 hours back, I said "Good night" to my dearest and best friend Mwai and went to bed.But I was twisting and turning from left to right , and right to left million times in my bed. I Just Could Not SLEEP.

To be honest,I find myself missing him again. Am I in love?( Hey WORLD SAY NO For My Sake!.) I don't know much about him. How can someone be in love when she does not even know his favourite colour? Isn't it ridiculous?

On the contrary,I never got enough of thinking and dreaming about him. He is continually recurring to my mind. It is pretty pathetic to realize that one does not know a thing about it. He hasn't seen real me who is now feeling 100% pure pains. He does not even know his words can burn me down into ashes. He only sees my pretending images and thinks I have zero feeling for him and completely get over him.Yes, I must confess one thing that whenever I think about him, my heart becomes so numb. Of course, I tried to pull myself out of this madness thing, but I gave up. Yes, where has my resistance gone? I asked myself many times what was so wrong with me. Now I stop asking that question since I realize nothing went so right from the start. And I give up resisting him instead of finding the resistance I lost.
Hey someone out there ( you know who you are), I only have one thing to tell you.
Babe I am too lost in you.....
If I could, I would like to know about him from A to Z, Head to toes, and inside-out. Do you know why? The answer is.....

I

want

to

be

in

love

with

you
....
Though my feelings can be found at your feet....

It is not all about taking but giving...

Lately

2009-08-13T19:51:00.004+08:00

MEET MY BABE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I bought a new guitar from YaMaHa Last month. So yup, I am pretty busy with my new babe.
Haha .Practicing it as hard as I can ...haha. umm... There are not much goings on in these days.
So, I dont know what to blog about.haha

......

2009-07-26T20:18:00.002+08:00

My friend asked me yesterday if i missed him, I didnt answer...
I just closed my eyes and walked away
and I whispered..."so much with all my heart"....

sigh

2009-07-22T01:25:00.000+08:00

I miss you so dearly
I really do....

Days

2009-07-17T11:05:00.005+08:00

day XIX
There is nothing to cause to remember you.
I got reminded of you though I don't see you in him .
And I guess I don't have a reason why....

Or
Can
you
find
a
reason
to
dismay
me
?
.........

Days

2009-07-16T21:35:00.002+08:00

Day XVIII

well..well...well....I cant believe I am doing very well today. hahaha

Days

2009-07-15T23:19:00.000+08:00

Day XVII .. ... getting better....

Days

2009-07-14T00:19:00.000+08:00

Day XVI あなたの事忘れられたい。

Days

2009-07-13T20:09:00.000+08:00

Day XV どうして。。君は好きになってしまったんだろう、でも君が選んだのは違う道。

Right Here... Right Now...

2009-07-12T21:05:00.010+08:00

My friends have been asking me why I mostly blog about "love" . Oh dears, it is because I don't know what is going with it. I don't really know ...
That's why I probably never have a successful relationship.

I always hide my emotions and feelings as much as I can. All I can afford to do is writing in my diary or blogging where they cannot find out. I know being open with emotions is honesty, and people should not regret honesty.But, I am really sorry for myself I am not one of them and that is so pathetic.

I closed my eyes for awhile to think about things so clearly. Feelings for "Love" at age of 17 ,19 and 22 are totally different but what I I find out is I did same mistakes. And sometimes over-controlling feelings inside made me feel suffocating..Again, I never ever thought of letting down my pride.....I am a beginner in learning a lesson called "let go" I guess.Yes, some think I am weird..LOLz. They may be true..

Right now, I don't want anyone right here in the center of my heart...
Let me breathe fresh air alone.. alone..... and be alone.....for a particular moment....

Days

2009-07-12T21:01:00.003+08:00

Day XIV
I hate the word "still".
Because you know.... I "still" long for you.

Days

2009-07-11T22:43:00.000+08:00

Day XIII
I am too lost in you....

Days

2009-07-10T21:45:00.002+08:00

Day XII
I know I should not be like that.. But still...

Days

2009-07-09T21:10:00.001+08:00

Day XI
It is You.. You happened to me..

who am i?

2009-07-08T10:53:00.008+08:00

I saw you in my dream.
You know.. Its totally Awkward.
Yesterday I slept with the thought that I was over you.
This morning, I woke up with the mind that I was not.
So I thought to call you , then again my mind said "NO".
What the F is so wrong with me?
What do I want? This or That?
I am really tired of it, and sick of it. And I found myself so irritating, pathetic, idiotic and fool.

In my entire life, when I made the decisions, I always respected and stick to them.
I called you yesterday.As soon as I heard your voice" Hello", I just hang up the phone.
I knew that the whole thing was so crazy.
I even knew that I should not have even felt too much about it.
I think about it to figure out why I am feeling such way.Shame on me. Shame on me!
Yes, I know it is way too much.
I am afraid that I might have put pressure on him as well.
I mean. I don't want people I adore to get annoyed because of me.

I don't know.. I don't know who I am now though I clearly remember who I was before.
I don't want to dwell on the past. I seriously want to get out of this whole thing.

Day X seems like it is not so different from Day I.

Days

2009-07-08T00:34:00.005+08:00

Day X...

A wise girl
kisses but doesn't love ,
listens but doesn't believe
leaves before she is left.

Marilyn Monroe

I am not a wise girl..I suppose..

Days

2009-07-07T18:53:00.001+08:00

Day IX...... I guess I don't know how to get over someone completely.

Boring day xD

2009-07-06T13:04:00.005+08:00

I never knew that I would have a boring Monday.
Most of my mondays are usually occupied. But to-day( Monday), I have no classes, and nothing to do.
Since it is Monday, friends are busy with their schools, works and other stuffs. So it is too self-fish if I ask them to go out with me.All I can say is this Monday is one of the most boring days in my life.

So what should I Blog about?Yes, I want to blog about "what-happened-the-day-before-yesterday". here it goes. :)

I have got an online friend called ZYN. And we have been knowing each other for nearly two years but we haven't met outside before. So yea, the day before yesterday, he saw me at Clementi Mrt Station and did not greet me. =( (But I am glad that he regonised me at least. ;D) At that time I was sort of lost in my own world and did not see him.(I know too much thinking is no good for me)
If Only I saw Him, I would definitely greet him for sure. Ohh,by the way, it was raining while I was on a way back to home. And I was so bored to take my umbrella out of my bag.( later I realized that my umbrella was lost when I wanted to open it. ahaha.)
So I walked in the rain and raindrops hit my face pretty gently and I didn't mind at all. Then I thought about how we( me and my two best friends) used to walked together in a heavy rain . And I got home and took a bath for 1 hour( my sis asked me if it was annual bath hehe =P). Yes, I was kind of afraid that I might catch a cold. Luckily, I was so well and even had a sound sleep that night. haha.
So, that was what happened the day before yesterday.

Anyway, I don't have any stirring to describe what my day VIII is like.
Ahh, one thing is I believe in proverb saying "A picture is worth a thousand words."LOL

Days

2009-07-05T16:12:00.003+08:00

DAY VII
7 days already!
It seems like I can get rid of the pain inside progressively.
Note: the key word here is " seems like".
*cough* *cough*

:)

2009-07-04T22:31:00.013+08:00

Everything looks so beautiful in my eyes, today.
I mean I am quite HAPPY.
I don't know why....
I feel like I suddenly gain an unending strength or something like that.
Today, even things made me to get reminded of him, I was not so down after all. :)
I will try my best to polish off the feelings I have for you happily. :D
I am glad that I want to move on. yey :D
Since from now, I will look at the things from positive side.
Dont know why.. I am so blessed today.
I wont suffer anymore.
I wont let myself to be in pain anymore.
I wont let anyone hurt my heart anymore.
I will enjoy my life as mush as I can.

Days

2009-07-04T00:30:00.000+08:00

Day VI .
one word." sigh. "

Dopey

2009-07-03T12:12:00.006+08:00

OK now what? NOW WHAT?
Why am I that dumb? I sometimes am seriously sick of myself.
I do feel guilty enough. And now things popped out to blame myself more.
Guilt and Shame are two different things, but I am feeling both.
Though he wont come back again here to check my blog, I should not have given add of this blog.
I really .. really thought that blog spots were banned in my country.
But I am pretty sure he was only interested in play lists and not in my blog posts.
THANKS LORD BUDDHA.
Oh yea, the conclusion is Shits happen sometimes.
It is time to hit Maths and Econ lessons so hard.
Study hard, get good grades and enjoy your life.
KKS, be strong like you were.!
Anyway when do unlucky things become friends of mine.?

すべてにごめんね。

2009-07-03T03:00:00.002+08:00

fucked up.
i messed it up again.

Me and My Days

2009-07-03T01:00:00.003+08:00

I watched Transformer II and the ice age III today. WOOz~ thanks to Mi-Lone
And I accompanied Mali for shopping.
My day was occupied with friends, movies and fun.
DAY IV and V.. I dun have much to say, but one Question...
Does the pain weigh out the pride?

Days

2009-07-01T21:11:00.000+08:00

Day III
suffering..
pretty badly...

Days

2009-06-30T23:51:00.001+08:00

DAY II
it pains me.. really

Days

2009-06-29T22:17:00.002+08:00

Day 1...
how long will it be?

Other side of the story

2009-06-26T12:17:00.008+08:00

It hurts ...
Why was I so dummy?
Why did not I speak out what was inside of me?
wonder if you are thinking about me like what I am doing now...
Guess you are not..
You said You would have your share of difficulties trying to forget the things .
quite suprise for me to know that.
Now I am pretending that I am really Really Okay,
but sometimes, it is truly truly killing me.
And to what extent can I pretend ?
I am stilling holding what you left inside of me.
It is gonna take time for me to overcome.sigh...
But how long would it be?huh?

I wish it never happened...
I wish you never called me...
I wish I never fall for you...

done

2009-06-12T02:43:00.001+08:00

it is over...
Girl....Accept it.. It is really Over.

argh

2009-06-10T23:57:00.004+08:00

I always say how I dont need you.
Actually, my mind is busy thinking about you from 12 a.m to 12 p.m.
I just only forgot to say out how much you mean to me
Grr ,,,,I am feeling way too mcuh.
Why am I like that? I AM SICK OF MYSELF now. seriously.

obnoxiousness

2009-06-09T23:39:00.003+08:00

Sometimes Shits happen.
f**king annoying.
I am capable of really anything.

Madness

2009-06-09T01:38:00.004+08:00

feeling totally stupid.
tsk.. I really dont want to touch my guitar at this moment.
But I do miss the times I listened to songs you played.
And I regret for whatever I did. sigh..sigh....
on 31st may, It was raining heavily and I was protecting my pride.
Your laughter and tiny lil shoulder were signature of you.
You are awesome ( I know I am bias)
Why didnt I notice that you would be my weakness or you would hit my weakness?
If only, If I had a time machine, I would go back to the day we started knowing each other.
No, I dont need a time machine.. I only need to tear some pages in my memory.Am I right? Say Yes please...
I dont want you to exist in the place where I can hide myself.
wonder what you are doing now...sighh...
shit =/ I dont want this to happen. It is the madness.

ummm

2009-06-03T11:14:00.004+08:00

I am here without you..~~
GuiTar always takes my breath away..always always. hahahahah
weakness? I like that word. lolz
When i told about u to my friends, they were totally SPEACHLESS. lolz
does the pain weight out the pride?

A lil note to you ( 21)

2009-03-24T10:32:00.009+08:00

The unqualified truth is that when I loved you with a love of a woman, I loved you simply because I found you irresistible.

Once for all, I knew to my sorrow, often and often , if not always, that I loved you against reason,against promise, against peace,against hope,against happiness, against all discouragment that could be.

Once for all, I loved you none the less because I knew it and it had no more influence in restraining me than if i had devoutly believed you to be human perfection.

Random

2009-03-23T23:00:00.003+08:00

Random

Neon Lights up above, Strong fluids on the table,
Cheesy Laughter in the air, Wannabes in the surrounding,
Sparkling shoes on the floor….

Alluring??Alluring?Alluring??
They are tempting feet of three types of human beings.
A Group of Liars, A Crowd of Hypocrites, and A Set of Beginners.

Meant to be or not?
They can’t be bothered judging their values.
All they concern is hit and miss which will be vanished in a flip.
Ethics and standards can be found at their shoes and heels.

Seeing two replicated images of themselves in the mirror may not be so astonishing for them.
Give a smile or greet as an obligation to whosoever they have met before.
Don’t wonder hard for being derelict but treat it as an outcome of longing.

To-night, they will take pleasure in unhealthy hours.
Nuisance hours are waiting for them, to-morrow.

William Shakespeare , his sonnets and I

2009-03-17T11:41:00.006+08:00

William Shakespeare wrote 154 sonnets which consist of a poem of fourteen lines. Shakespearean sonnets, also referred to as English sonnets, have three four line stanzas, or quatrains, and a two line couplet. The most common theme of the Shakespearean sonnets is love. William Shakespeare addresses the first 126 Shakespearean sonnets to a handsome young man. The latter Shakespearean sonnets are addressed to a 'dark lady' of ill repute. Shakespeare also refers to a rival poet. The identities of the subjects in these Shakespearean sonnets remain a mystery. Out of 154 sonnets, I always find myself in love with sonnet 116 and 142. =) here they go..check them out. :)

Let me not to the marriage of true minds

Sonnet 116 William Shakespeare

Let me not to the marriage of true minds

Admit impediments; love is not love

Which alters when it alteration finds,

Or bends with the remover to remove:

O, no, it is an ever-fixèd mark,

That looks on tempests and is never shaken;

It is the star to every wand'ring bark,

Whose worth's unknown, although his heighth be taken.

Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks

Within his bending sickle's compass come;

Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,

But bears it out even to the edge of doom.

If this be error and upon me proved,

I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

Love is my sin

Sonnet 142 by William Shakespeare

Love is my sin, and thy dear virtue hate,

Hate of my sin, grounded on sinful loving,

O, but with mine, compare thou thine own state,

And thou shalt find it merits not reproving,

Or if it do, not from those lips of thine

That have profaned their scarlet ornaments

And sealed false bonds of love as oft as mine,

Robbed others' beds' revenues of their rents.

Be it lawful I love thee as thou lov'st those

Whom thine eyes woo as mine importune thee.

Root pity in thy heart, that when it grows

Thy pity may deserve to pitied be.

If thou dost seek to have what thou dost hide,

By self-example mayst thou be denied!

Tell me my dearest friends, which one do you like more? :)

moviess moviess moviess

2009-03-12T13:27:00.006+08:00

I watched slumdog millionaire with my friend, lone, yesterday. I love that movie. Its really nice.
Anyway, let me blog about TWILIGHT NOW. Hope it is not too late. LoLz.I always wanted to blog abt that NON-SENSE movie. I just could not find time for it since I was busy with my exams.
Yes, the actor of twilight is drop-dead gorgeous and the actress is pretty too.But I really really hate that movie. So, my friend( lone who can be considered as a super big fan of Twilight series) told me read the books, twilight,newmoon,eclipse,and breaking down.After I read those books, my views toward it was getting wrose. I even felt like movie is much more better. Some people say it is like second Romeo and Juliet. Bullshitersssss. How dare they compare Shakespeare's precious work with that book! Wait, I am not insulting the author of Twilight. ( l am just giving fair comments, so,I am not liable for any TORT issues regarding to this blog HEHEHHEHE)
ok, let me continue, I am not againsting the romantic novels. As you know, I am a big fan of Jane Austin, William Shakespeare and poet Pablo Neruda, I always admire the romantic works created by my favourites.But this story line is just unacceptable to me. Whenever people around me talk about that movie, I go mad, insane and start complaining and end up with heated conversation. I am just so sick of that vampire and human love thing. tsk. I was reading "Marley and Me " while Twilight came out. You guys may tell me not to compare two different categories .Again, let me say, " Marley and Me" gives us to think about something meaningful such as Family life. But What did Twilight give?? huh? Love which binds Human and Vampire?tsk tsk
Arghhh, I just that movie.

Yeyyy

2009-03-07T18:25:00.003+08:00

yey HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i did very bad for LAW And ISB.
Well, I just want to pass that two subjects.
And I cant believe myself that worrying and praying hard JUST TO PASS them.. Hahaha.
I dont have a-list-to-do for my holidays. Just gonna pratice my guitar lessons!
Secondhand serenade, just give me few months!!
I am gonna try my best to beat you guys . hehehhehehe.:P
guitar guitar guitar guitar~~~~~
all i need is guitar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Take NOTE

2009-02-26T23:38:00.006+08:00

I get so irritated when my friends call me while I am sleeping.( except for d close ones)
This evening,while i was taking a nap, one of my friends called and complained about her boyfriend.Oh yea, she is f*king drunk. God damn it. I have no idea why she got drunk in the peaceful evening. I was damn sleepy and could not afford to entertain her on the phone and that made her so pissed off. My godness, i really dont know why people cant understand and read the other side of the story. She kept saying shes so f***ed up and hated him. So, tell that him in his face. Dont bother telling me your grandma story which I am f***ing sick of. I do understand that she wanted to speak out how she felt. And I would like to listen and give her some advices also.. BUT NOT MY SLEEPING TIME. Then, without appreciating my time, she just said "girl, you're f*ing mean" , because I didnt entertain and comfort her. wtf? She knew that I had some sleep deficit problem in these days. geez.. I really got angry with her. Ok, what is the moral of this story? Yes, THE MORAL is DONT CALL ME WHILE I AM SLEEPING UNLESS YOU HAVE CONFIDENCE THAT YOU ARE ONE OF MY CLOSEST FRIENDS.
I guess, I need tequila shot.LOL .. cant wait to go out with my friends after exams!!!!!!More tequila shots :P

;E

2009-02-25T20:05:00.002+08:00

LAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
it is driving me insane :(((((
and my undiscipline eyes want to close all the time again :(((((

Unfreeze me

2009-02-21T14:47:00.003+08:00

Today is the last of my memory in zero gravity
I wanna reach the floor
I can keep staying off your sight then I'll be alright
I knew I needed more

Feeling so uptight

I'm awake.......
But I still can't breath in
I'm so freezing.

Make it more sensible
Was it so bad?
Waiting for a magic touch
I'm defeated by myseif

I saw the sun on the other day
Hit me in the faceI didn't mind at all
I must have dozend off
I still beleive
There is no you and me
There's nothing at all

I am so freezing..

I am so freezing...

I am so freezing.....
I am so freezing........

opps!

2009-02-18T20:54:00.003+08:00

Just realized that I was too busy with writing my tragedy. hahha.
I have seen the beauty in the breakdown....
Oh my.. It is freaking Beautiful.....

LOL

2009-02-17T14:40:00.003+08:00

umm. I am sure most of my friends were studying yesterday while I was doing this PhotoShop thing.LOL

Sem5 is tough. LAW, MACro and ISB are totally insane subjects. LOL

Some of my friends were wondering why I was so down. And I could not give them a proper reason. LOL

I needed my guitar last two days so bad. And I dont know why. LOL

Laugh Out Loud. :D yes I do Laugh Out Loud. Some people also use LOL as Lots of love. Anyway LOL. :D

alright.

2009-02-16T19:12:00.001+08:00

bothersome? I get it.

dOwN..Yes I really am..

2009-02-13T23:27:00.007+08:00

Never thought that yOu would treat it as the chepest and lamest joke....

The ridiculous, sarcastic and humiliating laughters were totally uninvited, and unexpected

but they came.

Not just my pride, every part of my body is broken too.

If you feel better to behave in such way, then I am pleased.

But one thing is I put faith in your personality with all my soul.

Now you shattered my beautiful perceptions about you...

I am going to lose my joy, smiles and mode for a certain period of time.

I am sure I will be a better person than ever .....

a lil note to you ( 20)

2009-02-13T15:10:00.004+08:00

If breaking down my pride into pieces makes you happy,
dont ever think twice, just do it.
And I never thought it would end up as a joke.
You have it but you dont want it. I understand.

;B

2009-02-12T22:33:00.005+08:00

People should use their own stuff !!!!!!!!!
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. what the heck is wrong with me?
I am not a mean person. arrrrrgh.
But still. Oh godnees, help me to get the the hell out of it.

am I that Weak?

2009-02-10T21:46:00.005+08:00

um.. I got distracted today..
Flipping..Spinning..Flipping..Spinning...
Am I Moving on? or Am I Sinking Slowing???
Girl, Remember what you promised to yourself....
tskkk.. I am having " god-help-me' situation which I dont want myself to be in.
And it is quite insane too since he does not even know me. LOL
Be strong Doraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!

A letter to my babe...

2009-02-07T19:18:00.007+08:00

My Dearest Babe Aka my Guitar,

You dont know how much I miss you...You came to my life in 2007,so it has been 2 years... I cant find the suitable words to decribe my happiness when I took you into my arms for the first time. My parents, especially my PaPa, did not happy seeing me with you all the time. He thought you distracted alot me from studying. (Actually, PaPa was right , I was so into you and completely falling for you.).You may think, I left you alone and forget about you when I was having fun with my CDs, who were your rivals. Oh no, dear, I always need you and do count on you with all my soul. You know, you are damn amazing. You can turn my feelings into a song in a blink. I learnt about you ( to be precise, about the cords) from the books and my friends. Still, the sound of F cord was not nice :(. Sorry, I let you down :( forgive me. I am a bad friend, I know.. I did not take you with me. You were left all alone in my bed room.I tried to get a new one here but I still miss your six strings which are astonishing. Do not think I betrayed you. I just needed the one like you..Now, I am missing you so badly...I want to hug your beautiful, tiny, compact and amazing body again. Wait for me, I am comming to you in March.This time, no matter what, I will take you with me wherever I go. I promise! When we meet, I have lots of things to share with you. Hopefully, you will help me to turn them into songs. ...See you my dearest Guitar ;)

a lil note (18)

2009-02-07T19:04:00.002+08:00

Trying my best to get over the feelings I have for you.
For this particlar moment, your ignorance will be my best buddy that could help me to move on.

a lil note (17)

2009-02-05T21:32:00.002+08:00

Awkward. isnt it?

a lil note (16)

2009-02-02T23:13:00.003+08:00

You are just like the blood.
The heart pumps the blood in a beat.
Likewise,
Everything about you pop out with a beat of my heart.

Change

2009-01-29T21:35:00.004+08:00

So yea, What did I do today? haha, I coloured and highlighted my hair.Well, I feel it is kind of bright for me but my friend said I looked fine with it. hehe. Anyway, I decided to stop doing the silly stuff I did in last 2 weeks. It is too hopeless, well, I am hopeless myself also. LOL. I want to move on.. I really do. So, I will respect the decision I made and move on. I am strong, and tough.And I know i know.. I can do better !Cant I? I will never let myself overwhelmed by that kind of feelings again.Tsk tsk, heartless breeze is killing me now.

In my veins, you can still find your name....
It is tearing up my heart .....

But, Fareware is what I aim ....

Lovely day

2009-01-27T19:20:00.003+08:00

Today, I went to Mali's place for lunch. Oh, I must say Mali's mother is such a wonderful cook. I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooo addicted to the foods she cooked today. When I stepped into their house, I got the amazing smell of the FOODs that her mother prepared. As a result, it brought out so much of my hunger.
Normally, when I go out with people I know( even my relatives) for a meal, I always feel shy and hestitate to take more rice and the curry. BUT TODAY, I CANT afford to SHY AND HESTITATE and I had 3 plates of rice.hehe. It was my first time trying SriLanka foods and seriously, I love the fooodsssss. Oh,BTW, I met her Grandma also. She is so sweet, nice and very kind lady. Needless to mention, her Father and mother are SUPER NICE PEOPLE! Plus, I did have a very nice coversation with her mom. Oh my, I really like her family. I took some pictures with them and will put em later on. :)
Overall, Today is A SUPER DUPER AWESOME DAY.
Again, Thanks to Mali , her parents and Grandma for A beautiful day they made :)
I love to see them again :)

Fruits and Me

2009-01-25T22:28:00.003+08:00

FRUIT! frUIt FrUiT,fruit!
today I had the whole watermelon and finish it in 30 mins. haha. When I am so stressed, I do not talk at all ,but I tend to eat fruits quietly. Last time, I was eating 20 apples in 2 hours before my results came out. My mother got shock after she knew about it. haha. Hey Mom, I am sorry for making you worry all the time.
So yea, you may think what I basically want to blog now is about my stress. LOL. Nah. nah. I dont want to reval why i am so stressed out in here. Writing about it in my diary is more than enough, and third party is not needed. Haha.
So Why am i blogging now? I dont know ... haha. i dont know..~ I feel like blogging and I dont know what to blog about. weird? no no i am just damn stressed out. Opps! fruits are needed now.
bTw, Happy chinese new year~

a lil note to you (14)

2009-01-15T22:31:00.008+08:00

Today, I asked ...
The cloud to sing.
Breeze to harmony.
Heart to dance.
Vein to smile
Soul to shy.
ありがとう！
あんたの事大好き。。。
。 ~僕はそばにいるよ。。君を笑わせるから～

emo day~

2009-01-13T17:06:00.005+08:00

Today is such an emo day. LOL. Anyway, I still dont know what title I should give for my poem.
So are you people willing to suggest some good title for this one.? By the way, Constructive criticisms are super duper WELCOME! haha.

(Untitled)

Some say
Love is like the ongoing war.
If it is so,
I shall say it is a cruel game and indeed you are the one to blame.

You were someone else’s and
Now again, you are hers;
O’ love, I am pushed and fooled.
But for my heart’s sake,
I shall live with this pain and I shall wait for you in this vain.

Laugh at this awkward girl
Who loves someone she doesn’t deserve.
So that you know
I shall punish my soul and I shall throw my heart into a darkest hole.

People may say it is such a sacrifice
No dearest! No it is not.
Do dare to criticize them, my love,
And tell them it is not a sacrifice but her choice.
I beg of you not to mind
That my soul you awoke shall spend its life, singing your name till the world dies.

a lil note to you (12)

2009-01-11T22:27:00.004+08:00

Loving you is like running in a circle.
I dont know where it started and will end.
But I am sure I love you so purely without pride and arrogance.

Surrender

2009-01-10T16:02:00.005+08:00

Surrender

My dearest,
What do you find in my eyes?
Pains, Tears, Love, and Wounds?
What do you have in your heart?
Ignorance, Bitter, and Proud anger?

My love,
You watch my steps to you with blind eyes
But I run to them.
You hear my heartbeats with cold heart
But I bow to it.
You curse my soul with dreadful spell
But I cohere to you.

My lord,
Although you wound me not for the last time,
It may not be the last poem I write for you.
I will take all your rancor and silence
And I will love you with everything I have

Secret code

2009-01-09T18:26:00.006+08:00

Life is so mysterious.
Oh yea, Life is freaking pathetic at times too.
Vague? You mean what I am talking about is so vague
Endowed with great joy and Pride? Is it what you expected?
Wohooo.! It will be so great if life goes the way I want.
Exaggerating? NO I Am not..
I dont even know what The heck i am blogging about.
Relax, Relax,..
Emo? no I am not being Emo .
Nonesense.?, Ok, then I better stop blogging nonsense

have you ever unlocked the secret code?

The benefits of offering water

2009-01-08T14:54:00.003+08:00

If one does not drink water, he cannot he cannot live longer.He will become ugly, sad, weak and stupid. If one does not bathe, he will not be clean and fresh. Therefore, the donors of water can be endowed with longevity, beauty, wealty, strength, wisdom, cleanness, fame and great retinue. They will be free from thirst.

a lil note to you (11)

2009-01-07T15:32:00.001+08:00

I am really tired.
cant you see???????????????

;D

2009-01-05T14:27:00.002+08:00

I am so jovial to be there. yes i really am

a lil note to you (10)

2009-01-05T02:13:00.001+08:00

バカにしている。
バカにされている。

2008

2008-12-31T21:38:00.006+08:00

January

School started. Yeah that was awesome. I met new friends. I thought we would be friend rest of our lives. Trust me! Math was great but MPO sucked indeed. I confirmed my fare ware goodbye to the science subjects. Bye Bye . I missed my best buddies, Aye Mwai and Hnin Wail in..and wrote lots of letters for them. Missed the time we spent together in our hometown, and missed very much of my life in my home.

Feb

All the sick assignments were over, and I did wait hungrily for the results. I gazed him for no reasons and yes, I was occupied with watching his world from afar. I could not believe I was doing that. I noticed that I sighed a lot at times. And… I… I saw his nails and the shape of his fingers. They were beautiful….truly beautiful….

March

Holidays! Yey! I realized taking lollipop a day made me to cough horribly. As a result, I gave up eating lollipops. HaHa. I said sad Goodbye to lollipops. Never mind, I can still take some kinds of sweets. And I found myself in love with clorets. That was super good for me. Oh, How I missed my best 2 bitches..

April

Holidays ended and classes resumed! When I am scared or nervous, I tend to puke. So What?? Of course, I did not want to puke during the presentation. Imagine, you puked in front of the class. I was positive it would be the most horrible experience I would ever have in my life. So yea, I decided to skip my breakfast, though I was still about to puke on Malinda’s blouse. Luckily, I managed to control it. HEHEHE. The feelings…were growing... And I was secretly falling apart. April 26th, I could not send any present but million wishes for my best friend, Aye Mwai. Three of us missed how we had fun in Water festival, our Myanmar new year.

May

Cyclone hit my beloved country. Children became orphans, Parents lost their kids, and homeless people were hungry and ill. Dead bodies could be found flooding. A thousand tears were dropped from my eyes and did some help as much as I could. Anyway, I was scared like hell for account exam. Before, the exam started, I murmured a word “good luck”. He did not hear it, oh well; I did not want anyone including him to hear it too. May 8th, I sent all my loving and best wishes for another best friend, Hnin wai Linn.

June

One thing that I am pretty sure is being in my mom’s arms is always sweet and warm!! Meeting my best friend Hnin wai Linn was wonderful as always. =) We both did not want to take a picture. It would be more like an incomplete jigsaw than a nice photo since the lost piece was in Japan. By the way, I did not find myself missing him. That was cool.

July

What?? Short Hair?? GRRRRR. I knew I looked terrible with new hair cut. July was the month that I hate to stand in front of the mirror. Whenever I looked at myself in the mirror, I just simply swore WTF. It was the month that I found myself so damn freaking pathetic, because I did not know it was damn difficult to put the word, “Ignorance “in my dictionary. And it was the month I missed and needed my 2 bitches so damn much.

August

Birthday J My birthday.. Thanks to Lone Lone and my roommate for the surprises!!! Hey, Lone Lone, Fish and co ‘s birthday song was SO-WOW. Thanks girls! All the presents were breathtaking. The call from Japan made super duper blissful ~ I am so blessed ~

September

Sisters , Sisters, Sisters~ They were beautiful and terrific.~ I..I did not want to admit it, but I dreamt of him. The wet substance covered my face. Were they tears? so be it..

October

New semester started, new goings-on came up. I always tried my best to understand different kinds of people. I just could not take it anymore. I wondered why such thing had happened. But, I never asked people to stay back. Anyway, I had wonderful lunch at orchard for Mali’s birthday. I was late and made her hungry to death. Hehe. Sorry Mali. Thai Food was so delicious!

November

I looked up the skies and talked to the moon as if it can hear me. I did some silly stuff which I don’t want to mention in November. I thought Navy Blue was the nice color. I guess that color suited him pretty .well. I wanted to steal the thing from him which was essential for him and made him to see the world clearly though I did not

December

The first time I wanted to spend the December in countries like Canada,& Japan. I wanted to feel and enjoy the snow. Coming December, I hope I would be in somewhere like that. HeHe. I finished making 120 stars. Were they for him? I guess not. I wonder how 2009 is waiting for me. Guess what? I hope I could finish off the leftover feelings in 2009. Is it my new year resolution? I dun know either. And I wish, I would have full of joys and excitements in and 3 of us would meet too in 2009.

Things changed, and went crazy, wonderful and terrible in 2008. Whatever happened in 2008, one thing I am sure is friends and family will always make me happy and they will never change.

Hey World

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A lil note you (9)

2008-12-13T11:54:00.003+08:00

I dont like being chained,

but

But

I cant deny I am chained by your everlasting smile.

hEy yOu,

tell me how to break it.Will you?

David Archuleta

2008-12-09T01:18:00.006+08:00

Finally, his ablum was out! ;)I have been waiting this lil talented singer's creation. Seriously, I loveeeeeeeeeeeee his ablum. The whole album is packed with brilliant songs. Honestly speaking, I dont really like the album cover, i feel that it is too simple. I mean, he can do better, you know. But his youthful, cute and adorable picture makes me to look at the cover shot again and again. :) Well, we dont need smiley and hottie cover. He gave his best for this album.That is more than enough.

Needless to say, our " Golden archies" sings the songs SO BEAUTIFULLY in this album. I like all of his song but I think "touch my hand" is nicer than "crush". It is AWESOME WORK!!!Ohh David cook's ablum was released too (.\/.) I listened it.Well, I dont even enjoy one out of 12 songs. HEHEHHEHEHE. I know it is so subjective, but i cant help . hehe. Anyway, age of 17 and our "archies" really did a great job. Congrats!

"David Archuleta ! you are AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Next post is gonna be About Britney's album. Now I am too sleepy.Gonna get some sleep. nitezzzz (=_=)

cut it off

2008-12-05T16:05:00.004+08:00

I dont know.. I dont know if i am right or wrong. I dont really know. I Dont even know where to start. I dONt know where to end,either. haha guess I think too much and too deep. I just realize today, I am quite romantic. I dont want to do anything unless my heart says "Yes". oh well, the sad new is my heart doesnt have brain. hahaha. No wonder, I keep ignoring when my brain whispers me that I do need a slap in my face.

Without a doubt, I am worshiping my magician's sweet suprise.
The worst part is I still foolishly believe that the trees I plant will give me some shade.

When brain cant control over the eyes,

2008-11-15T21:49:00.018+08:00

exams are coming up in like 2 weeks, Oh well I havent started studying yEt. Of cause, I do know what I will get from studying last minutes. Being a diligent student, I do loveeeeeeeee to study and get good results. But the thing is my eyes are so naughty. They want to close all the timeeeee.When I try to hit the books, they want to close already. I scold my eyes as much and harsh as I can, but they disobey me :( They still refuse to follow the timetable I make. Oh my, I have no idea how am i going to do the exams. Praying to Buddha all the night before the exams might not help me to get good scores. I know that taking Pictures and having so much fun with your friends will not make any good. haizz Econs,? Finance,?OTQM? oH nooooooooooooo

how, hOw,How,HOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW?

Now i dont wish to know other peoples' dreams, I JUST WISH to know what will come out in the exam. At this time, I cant bother why bird fly and just wonder if angels are willing to help me in the exams.tsk, I havent even finished blogging yet, my undisciplined eyes want to CLOSE NOW.

hey World, i dont want to say this thing, but I MUST say it Now.

"Good Nite"

huh?

2008-11-14T19:40:00.003+08:00

On the way back to home, I asked myself a million of questions.
What kind of man is he?
What was his childhood like?
Is he mean or nice?
How many stories does he have?
Does he like tic tac?
What's his view on global warming ?
Has he ever heard about the cons of biodegradble plastic?
Does he even know me?
What, When, whY bla bla bla bla bla bla
Well, after giving myself a break for a while, the last question poped out.
Why on earth does this fella mean something to me?
tsk, why the hell..does this killer question burst out?

A lil note you (8)

2008-11-10T23:02:00.003+08:00

I...................Am.................So.................................
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DoWn

Wont you help me to Get Up???huh??

new hair cut~

2008-11-04T23:40:00.005+08:00

FUNNY ME. Laugh Laugh. I dont mind . hahaha

lol i have had a hair cut today. I guess I look so hilarious. HAHAHAHAohh btw, I have no idea what SIM is heading to. What the hell is wrong eh? making 6 groups for sem 5? huh? Well, from postive point of view, you get to know people better. anyway, i dont bother it that much. Haha.

Good Nite world.

Myanmar Idol and Sri Lanka idOL:P

2008-10-31T20:40:00.008+08:00

We sang in the class and recorded it as if we'd got nth better to do. Jobless children ;PHahaha. silly us. Hope this vedio will give you a laugh.

Ohh , i amlost forget to wish you all! ~~~Happy Halloween ya~