Shock?

lol? No No. I CANT LAUGH OUT NOW.
Is it really true?
How can it be?Hey ...are you really....?
*GULP*
I have known you for like.. 8 years. Yes, I confess that we did not have so-damn-close conversations, and we were not even considered as friends but still we knew each other to some degrees. It is kind of confusing, isn't it. Anyway I found about it TODAY.I mean, please.

You are pretty brave enough to tell these secrets inside to all the people you know and yet you are... . How can you be so comfortable and clam? You know, the images of you popped out from somewhere inside me such as how you were busy with your sketching classes, basketball team, your guitar, and songs . Come on, I did not have a thing on you but I was kind of attracted to you.I still remember how I stopped and gazed you when I was 14. You were in shorts, sort of sweaty, holding the basketball, and giving the best-smile ever to a little girl who was 7 years younger to you.
I just can't link back all the images with the-today-you. I ...I .. don't know whether I should be happy or sorry for you. Why am I so hesitating to accept it while you are relax and happy of being who you really are? I dont know.. i dont really know...
I am left speechless and I am scared too....
Don't ask me why I am so freaked out since I really do not have any answer for it.